"When are you getting married?"

Its not new on my ears when someone asks me "when are you getting married" and I always replied "is it possible for a single to get married?" hehehee. Well, its not a big deal for me, its just because I'm used to it already and I don't think those question or any other related one will spoil my day. If there's one thing I learned from the battle I've been through that is to find inner happiness in life. And aside a partner is just an ADDED  factor on one's life NOT AN ESSENTIAL to complete the  person.

As I'm eating my lunch on my desk I had a chance to talk to one my cousin in Philippines through YM and the conversation really makes me smile, let me share to you our conversation.

ate bubot: hi jen... merry christmas and a happy new year...

Me: hello ate...merry christmas & happy new year..
musta jan?
di ako nkkpagonline masyado eh
ate bubot: ok lang naman.... kayo, kumusta na?
busy ka ngayon?
Me: ok nman..nung christmas sama2 kami s mga tita sylvia
ate bubot: oo nga. nakita pictures nyo sa facebook.... mukhang ang saya-saya ng party nyo.... puro nakabungisngis sa picture
Me: hehehe...e ngpagames kc kami
no choice kahit kami2 lng d2 kelngan mging happy para d mahomesick
hehehe
ate bubot: kaninong baby nga pala ung andun?
Me: ahh..sa friend nina shean
taga bats dn jan s alangilan
ate bubot: a ok. akala ko may baby na sila shean...
Me: naku wala pa nga
ate bubot: di pa ba buntis si shean?
Me: di pa...kc polysystic sya so ngpptreat pa
kelngan muna mcorrect yung hormonal imbalance nya
ate bubot: e ikaw kelan ka na mag-aasawa?
nahuhuli na kayo nila che-che
Me: ngek..d pwede mgasawa ang single
hehehe
oo nga ehh
ate bubot: hanap ka na ng bf jan?
dapat makapag-establish ka na ng relationshi[p
Me: hehehe, wala pa bnbgay c Lord
busy kc ako s work..hehehe
ate bubot: sige kau.... baka sumunod kayo sa apak nila ate norma at tita atit.... hehehe
Me: naku..wag nmaan..hahaha
ate bubot: ay sya bilis-bilisan na ang paghanap.... hehehe
Me: hehehe..sge tngnan ntin malay ntin ngaung 2010 mkhanap na
hehehe
ate bubot: ok. good luck! kumusta na lang sa lahat ha. ingat kau jan
Me: ok thanks..musta sa lahat jan
ate bubot: ok

Hmmm, lets wait & see kung may ibibigay na si Lord this coming 2010 :)

Christmas Song Gift

Christmas Day is a thanks giving day for all the blessings we had & have, for all the people who come our way and some of them are already part of our life. We been through many challenges, problems,trials, loneliness, boredom and sometimes iddleness but inspite of those we are still standing up to now. Sometimes we want to give up; we are tired but we keep on holding on because of the hope and faith that tomorrow there will be another sunny day

Let me share this song that was shared to me by Szean, my cousin last Christmas Day. "Pag kinasal ka ito ang gamitin mong kanta...actually may 2 meanings sya one is for spiritual and the other one is on love life" she said. Well, I don't think I need to elaborate because in each line you will see & picture what does the song wants to convey. Hope you like it as I do.. Thanks Sze for this Christmas gift...hehehe, i like it!

BLESS THE BROKEN ROAD -- rascal flatts

II set out on a narrow way, many years ago
Hoping I would find true love, along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two, wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign, pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream, led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way, into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Yes He did

I think about the years I spent, just passin' through
I'd like to have the time I lost, and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand, you've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan, that is comin' true

Every long lost dream, led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way, into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Yeah

Now I'm just rollin' home into my lovers arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Hausemates 2009 Christmas Partee

kita kits sa bahay ni lolo at lola....
Merry Christmas :)

Missing the Old Feelings

December 22 really excites me. I am always busy during this day and I even skip my lunch just to finish every documents I have on my desk and to hand it over to the person who will be my reliever during my leave.

But this year is different from those years. I am still on the same desk, busy as usual, but today too much bunch of documents on my desk can still be seen. I still have time to blog and didn't skip my lunch today. I'm not even in a hurry to finish everything on my hand...seems not to care. And to top it all I am not excited about this day.

It just simply today I don't have my air ticket with me...

I don't have any luggage to check in...

I don't have any worry what time I can finish everything for me to go home on time...

Simply because I will not be home for Christmas this year

Just missing the old feelings I had for some consecutive years....

Sunday Surprise

Sunday is the first day of the week here in gulf. And every sunday what to expect...super busy schedule, desk & tray na umaapaw ang documents, teleponong nakakabingi sa pagring. But inspite of that something makes me super smile & saya at di lang ako even all those persons na nakareceived. Everyone is excited to open and all of us were surprised!

sooo..cuteeeeeee...sympre akin ang pinakaiba at pinakamaganda,hehehe sympre ako ang anak,hehehe

That cute Christmas card is from Lolo...Sato san. Even he is assigned already in Japan,di nya kami nakakalimutan and super nageffort sya na magsulat knowing na super busy sya sa head office. Well...really appreciated naman ng lahat.

And sympre talagang idinisplay ko talaga sa desk ko yung card..and it really caught attention and all of them are asking ..."from my boss" "sino si tatang nyo"..."di ah kay Lolo ko"

Although yearly naman ako may natatanggap na Christmas card from friends and family / relatives, this one is different kasi Lolo is my first boss ever na nagbigay ng card...super thoughtful nya talaga :). This is also the 1st card for this year na natanggap ko and it really makes me smile.

Hay ilang araw na lang and Christmas na...sa mga gift givers tumatanggap na po ako ng mga gifts :)

All I want for Christmas '09

Christmas is just around the corner...as in 10 days til Christmas na lang. But for those gift givers I know abot na abot pa itong wish list ko for you to fulfill my wish, at least di ka na mahihirapan di ba

Let me start my list on all the things I want to have & hold, not in any order guys..hehehe:

Earrings holder & jewelry box..I have so many accessories and surely it will be usable

Organizer..I love writing as in anything lang kahit senseless hehehe. I always have an organizer or diary on my bag. You can also include ballpen..hmm,and speaking of pen you can check the pink parker pen on Jarir Bookstore,hehehe

Last year on my list I asked D&G light blue and Very Sexy VS lotion. This year I want to have a Bath & Body Works again! I want a Cherry Blossoms scent body splash, Pink Grapefruit body butter, Enchanted Orchid lotion...calling my best friend Ian Best,kindly send me again B&BW please...hehehe. If those scents are not available country apple will do, or mango mandarin, green tea, etc...kahit na ano...hehehe

I love mellow music and just recently I heard Princess again. Philippine local acoustic singer sya, the last time I went on vacation narinig ko yung album nya and my cousin Kathy told me na kahit di pa sya sikat (that time) is always sold out CDs nya e yon nga nagpunta ako sa record bar and sold out na nga...so attention po sa mga uuwi ng Pinas who wants na bigyan ako ng gift please please buy one album of Princess for me.

I got my wallet as a remembrance of the first company evaluation, yung money na binigay ng company ang ibinili ko actually 10% sale pa nga yata nung binili ko, that time I don't like yung mahabang wallet pero ngayon gusto ko na, hindi dahil sa marami akong money na ilalagay ha,hehehe. I want a simple one, black color lang ok na or any basic color.You can check Guess at Royal Plaza or sa Strandbags @ City Centre.

Every year I buy at least 1 inspirational book, just something to read in the morning to uplift me or in the evening to pasify me from tiring day. Kung mapapadaan ka sa National Bookstore or sa Jarir Bookstore you can buy 1 for me. Or kung nahihirapan ka na pumili you can just but me "Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus" pero sympre yung topic na suitable naman for me.

Since I will not spend my holidays in Pinas, dito ako sa Doha, Qatar magchacharity works. At who told you na walang needy people here..well I'm planning to visit our distressed kababayans who are now under the custody of OWWA (Overseas Workers Welfare Administration). As I coordinated with my officemate & friend Delson who actively going there, our kababayans needs toilettries (eg.toothpaste,bathsoap,shampoo,towel,etc.), so if you are a cheerful giver di lang ako yung mabibigyan mo ng regalo pati rin sila mapapasaya mo.

I love pictures and to love it more I must have my own camera, since iniwan ko sa Pinas ang cam ko I want to have 1 again...hay wag ka muna magreact I know its expensive pero di ko naman ipapabili sayo,hehehe. I will grant this wish for myself

Kikay girls love pink but me...hindi naman sa ayaw ko pero nagkataon lang na kokonti ang pink color things ko like pink shirts, hanky,etc. And I noticed everytime I wear pink sinasabi nila na bagay daw sa akin, so mas magiging bagay siguro sa akin ang mga pink things if those are from you.

Di ko naman idol si Vilma Santos but I can't be comfortable without panyo on my hands and would you believe na kahit matutulog I should have it kasi kung hindi I feel na parang may kulang at the same thing 'pag gising ko yun ang 1st thing na hahanapin ko sa bed..hehehe. So gift givers...baka makakakita ka ng panyo habang nagshoshopping ka not necessarily branded kahit yung sa bangketa lang pwede na...I preferred checkerd designs or if my plain except white ok din para pang terno sa damit ko.

There are some pa sana pero baka mahirapan ka ng mamili which gift or giftssssssss you will buy for me so next year na lang yong iba :) . So to all gift givers at sa Mommy / Daddy ko sa chriskringles sana mabasa nyo ito Pero if ever na nakabili na kayo I will still accept it and super super thanks in advance. Anyways, its the thought that counts naman :0)

All I want for Christmas ...are priceless

When someone asks us kung ano yung wish natin we commonly enumerate those things na we can have & hold by our hand...in short materials ones. But as they its better to receive a priceless gift especially from those people you really love & care. If yesterday I posted those gifts that I want to receive this Christmas, now yung mga priceless gift naman na I want to have and sana for lifetime .

Love is the most powerful thing on earth. Sabi nga ng mga taong cheesy it can move heaven and earth daw..well. I know I have it already and I want those persons who love me just to continue loving me, inspite of my tantrums, weaknesses and some not so good thing about me.

When I was still a "professional student" in short wala pang trabaho,hehe my friend Jona asked me "hay Jen kelan kaya dadating yong time na magiging busy tayo sa work? yung nagmamadali sa morning kasi baka malate at tumatanggi na sa mga social gatherings kasi may OT or exhausted na?"...well kung alam mo lang Jona, that's exactly my situation right now. I'm not complaining naman pero I wish I have more TIME to do all the things I want to do. I remembered what Serge told me nung one time na makachat ko ulit sya "Jen saan ba nakakabili ng TIME?" I replied naman "huh?" "yes kasi kung may alam ka pakisabi lang sa akin para mabilhan kita ng maraming marami kasi lagi ka na lang busy" he added. Kung meron nga lang ba...

Patience is a virtue...I am patient naman but I need more more more patience. Patience to the people around me..hehehe and sympre in everything I do.

Faith...I am not loosing it but I don't want to be stagnant on what I have now. I want to grow and I know I need to do a lot of things pa in order to be there...but I'm not in a hurry naman ssabi nga "slowly but surely". I know God is step by step molding me.

They call me Ms. Friendship wayback in Pinas..hehehe kahit na supladita ako and kinda mataray daw..hahaha. When I started to work here in gulf may mga nagbago and usually kahit di sabihin sa akin ng mga tao dito sa office they see me as mataray at suplada talaga, only those people na friends ko na ang nakakaalam who's the real me. One thing Im sure about "being vocal & figthing for what is right & need to be is not katarayan". I'm not asking friendship for everyone, what I really wish is for those people..I mean my FRIENDS here and in Pinas or kung saan mang sulok ng mundo..hehehe to always keep our FRIENDSHIP burning. You know who you are guys and I know that I really love & care for you.

I have so many pa sana but sa ngayon yan yung top 5 on my list.

I will try my very best to grant all those "priceless gift" for myself

"Failure is the best mentor"

It may sounds ironic but yes its true. I can't imagine my life now without those failures I have gone through. I am who I am today because of those failures who have been my best mentor in my life

Habits of a Highly Successful Singles

I already shared several topics about singleness that based on my personal encounters, opinions and some are excerpted from what I had read.

I always tell that looks doesn't matter but it counts; age is not an impediment but it affects; and attitude always matters. I personally sometimes asked myself on how other singles like me survives the pressure of the peers and environment in asking "why are you still single?" or "when will you get married?". But since I'm used to it already its already a sounds to me ear.

I want to share an article that I read from e-harmony on habits of a highly successful singles.

Never treat or even say that singleness is a curse on you; always trust that God has someone better for you

These are “healthy habits” that ensure you become the most attractive person possible—and boost your chances of finding a fantastic partner. To be a highly successful single, start with these productive practices:

1. Keep growing and moving forward. There is something extremely enticing about people who have identified their purpose in life, work hard to cultivate their abilities, and have goals they’re moving toward. When people are passionate about where they’re going in life, we want to go with them. You will be far more captivating to the opposite sex by continually growing, developing, and moving your life toward a grand goal.

2. Be proactive, not passive. Many men and women want love, a relationship, and marriage -- but they don’t do much to make it happen. If you want to find a partner, you’ve got to be proactive and persistent. Patience may indeed be a virtue, but when it comes to finding the love of your life, so are guts and gumption.

3. Step out of your comfort zone and take risks. Some people have no problem meeting, greeting, and forming new relationships. Others have a much tougher time pushing themselves “out there” socially. They must summon their courage, swallow their anxiety, and plunge into social settings. If you tend to be reserved and restrained, there’s no point in trying to remake yourself into an outgoing, life-of-the-party type. Be who you are -- but be prepared to push yourself.

4. Accentuate your God-given assets. Everyone has strengths and weaknesses that they bring to a potential relationship. The trick is to maximize your assets and minimize your liabilities. Look for ways to develop and utilize your talents; likewise, try hard to curtail your shortcomings. The aim is not perfection—the aim is to reach your full potential.

5. Operate from a position of strength and security. Self-confidence is contagious, and self-assurance is highly attractive. You’ll boost your odds of finding a partner if you become convinced deep down that you have a lot to offer. Believe the best about yourself and your future.

6. Become a skilled communicator. There is an art to communication -- and these days, it’s largely a forgotten art. The most average-looking person can be wildly attractive by becoming adept at listening, empathizing, asking questions, and making the other person feel completely understood and accepted. This is a kind of genius that can be learned.

7. Remain steadfastly optimistic. Not only are upbeat, hopeful people more enjoyable to be around, but they also make for far better romantic partners over the long haul. Dozens of research studies have demonstrated that positive people are likely to achieve more goals, handle stress more wisely, overcome depression more quickly, and manage problems with far greater effectiveness.

You don’t need to rely on luck or an elusive secret. When you have sound, sensible guidelines to live by, you can count on dating success.

Christmas Away from Home

Its December again!

I love winter...but this year the coldness of the weather bring blues on me.

I love to hear Christmas songs ..but lately it become noise to my ears

I love writing my shopping list..but until now I don't have it yet

I love shopping for gifts ...but now I feel like I'm always tired

Maybe I'm just not that excited on the coming holidays...

Maybe I'm just exhausted of some other priorities...

Maybe I'm just really tired...

But one things I am sure...

I will miss my loved ones this Christmas

Something to Ponder: LONELINESS

If there's one thing to expect when you are away from home & loved ones that is LONELINESS.

Working abroad is not easy as it sounds. There are times that you will experience homesickness and much more when Yuletide season is coming...the " Christmas Blues".

Ever since I moved here in Doha to work I can't help to miss my friends even I have chance to chat with them, I still miss those times that we are personally chatting, laughing & even sometimes crying with one another. Although I have friends here I'm still longing the comfort and companions of my so long life called friends. But I must learn and take first the things that I have on my hand at this moment.

Let me share you what I've got this morning from my mail

Although loneliness is painful, it isn't always a bad place to be for a time. C.S. Lewis said "God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks to us in our conscience, but shouts in our pain: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world."

God definitely spoke to us in our loneliness. And I started wondering if perhaps there are times when God allows loneliness into our lives as an invitation to pursue Him as our closest friend. When our friends have left us, or we have left them, God reveals His presence in new ways. Tim Hansel, author of Through the Wilderness of Loneliness writes, "Loneliness is not a time of abandonment...it just feels that way. It's actually a time of encounter at new levels with the only One who can fill that empty place in our hearts."

God longs to fill our hearts with Himself. Yet we often try to fill the desires of our hearts with the things of this world. We also discover those attempts to find replacements for God are fleeting and insubstantial, leaving us even lonelier than before.

As you face a time of loneliness, take this opportunity to look to Jesus as a best friend. Jesus Himself calls us friends in John 15:15, "I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you."

Even though we were designed for community, God has a purpose for loneliness. If we can learn from it, rather than resent it, I believe we'll find a life-long Friend who'll never leave us lonely.

Dear Lord,

Thank you for being my Friend...a friend who will never leave me. Lord, teach me how to make the best out of my loneliness. Amen

Love,

Jenjen

Happy Relationship

"You can only have a happy relationships if you have a happy self love" - Bo Sanchez

In order for us to love someone we must learn to love ourselves first. Search, find, and love yourself first before loving others.

My E-Inspirations

All of us has our own inspirations. They are the people who we look up to or admire. We may know them personally like our family, friends, colleagues or mentors. But sometimes there are some people na di natin kilala personally but we admire them and become our inspiration; they may be a famous actors, tough broadcasters, prominent writers, etc.

I want to you to meet my inspirations. People who I don't know personally and surely they don't know me as well....hehehe but inspired and encouraged me to strive more to be a better me. I just met them all in "e-world"...in just a click you can meet them too.

Meet Lysa TerKeurst: Leading Women in Adventure of Faith

I met her through "Encouragement Today", an e-ministry's devotions mail. I am already more than 1 year ng subscriber ng ET but just recently I was able to noticed that each topic they sent to me has different authors. I was really blessed when I read their article entitled "Rejection" and found out its writer name. Yeah..she is Lysa and immediately visited her website. Visiting her site is now a part of my regular surfing routine. If you want her to be a part of your everyday life as well, you can visit her in: http://lysaterkeurst.blogspot.com/

Meet Bianca Gonzales: Supergirl Wannabe

I am not a fanatic by nature but I was really impressed with Bianca. Not all artist who are actively seen on tv is as sensible as her. Sensible not only doing her job in hosting or acting but as a person when she's off cam. Oh di ba sounds we really close to each other hehehe. She was introduced to me by my cousin Leslie a year ago but not personally but through blogger. Since her blogs was five years old then I need to read all of it from the start so I can relate to her future blogs. Good I did, coz I had a chance to her better. She's really beautiful inside & out and not only an artist but a samaritan in her own way. She inspired me that if I really want to help others I can do something even in my own litte way.

Meet ShopCrazy: Boost Your Shopping Smarts

Like any other girls, I love shopping sooo much! but I get even more head over heels enjoy it if I got all the items in a cheap price. When I started working here abroad one of the thing that I missed is my Cosmopolitan magazine collections. And since the country where I am now is prohibiting that kind of magazine, I consulted the net if I can subscribe the same in the net. And at last I did...yeah its the "shopcrazy" . It is an influential shopping blog under Female Network that currently has a base of almost 13,000 hardcore shopping aficionados. It covers the latest products and services coming out in Metro Manila in a variety of categories (fashion, beauty, home, gadgets, food, lifestyle services, and kids). You can never go out on what is the hip on Philippine fashion with SC. So be inspired to be a Pinay fashionista even away from home.

Meet Bo Sanchez: The Preacher on Jeans

I know Bo since my college days, I am an avid reader of his books like what I have "To Date or Not To Date". His books tackles realistic issues and situations in ones life plus the soulfood that he always offered. Reading his blogs and other writings really inspired to go on and reach my dreams and most especially search myself on what is my purpose here. I received a worthy reading article from an officemate and on the last line I saw that is from Bo. Now I can take the soulfood he's serving not only to the books but even in just a click .

Inspirations may be from the person we know personally and we can visibly seen but since we are now in technie era they are just a click away.

Be inspired and encouraged in just a click!

Omit "MAYBE"

As a person we usually asked ourselves so many "what if'". We are sometimes convince ourselves of so many "maybe" for us to feel better and secure. But have you ever told to yourself that the only way to escape to those what if's and maybe's is to accept the fact that all in this world has its own purpose?

Here are some of the "maybe's" that surely turns into an affirmation if we will only learn the essence of acceptance. Omit all the "maybe" and read it over and over. Hope you will see and feel the difference

(Maybe) we were supposed to meet the
wrong people before meeting the right
one so that, when we finally meet the
right person, we will know how to be
grateful for that gift.

(Maybe) it is true that we don't
know what we have until we lose it,
but it is also true that we don't know
what we have been missing until it
arrives.

(Maybe) the brightest future will
always be based on a forgotten past;
after all, you can't go on
successfully in life until you let go
of your past mistakes, failures and
heartaches.

(Maybe) you should hope for enough
happiness to make you sweet, enough
trials to make you strong, enough
sorrow to keep you human, and enough
hope to make you happy.

(Maybe) the happiest of people
don't necessarily have the best of
everything; they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.

(Maybe) the best kind of friend is
the kind you can sit on a porch and
swing with, never say a word, and then
walk away feeling like it was the best
conversation you've ever had.

(Maybe) happiness waits for all
those who cry, all those who hurt, all
those who have searched, and all those
who have tried, for only they can
appreciate the importance of all the
people who have touched their lives.

We will only live once but once is enough if we will live it right...no hatred, no regrets, no what if's, no maybes.

Let Me Share

Let me share you this thought from a friend of mine. I was chatting with him a while ago when he suddenly popped up with this advice. Thanks po

"shed your tears to cleanse your heart but after that, cleanse your thought by accepting and moving on"

We are human and each of us has our own emotions. I admits mejo iyakin ako even some petty things naiiyak agad ako. I cry when I'm tired..physically and emotionally tired. I cry when I'm hurt much more when "heartaches". I cry when I'm disappointed. I cry when I'm overwhelm, symphatizes, and even movies or mga simpleng tv shows. Pero di ako iyakin ha

Its fine to cry...how hard it is pa. Don't think what other people will say against you; they don't know exactly how you feel. But after the rain the sun will come out again. Welcome the new day with smile. Wipe the tears, stand, and move on

Heart Me at Thursday

I was in a hectic pace this week, although I used to worked under pressured & stressed team this week is different. Two days in a row I worked until 10:00 p.m and almost asleep when I got inside the car going home. Just last night knowing that its the last day of the week although I'm tired I appreciatively watch the scenery in Corniche road...parang kagabi ko lang nanoticed ang mga ilaw sa corniche. When I reached home at the door wayI noticed that the light was turned off and its not usual unless nobody at home.

Until.....

I was surprised when I saw that our christmas tree is already arranged but since I'm excited and super namiss ko na rin ang magayos ng christmas tree inayos ko ulit yung mga christmas balls and ribbons. Super nakakarelax talaga..nakakapawi ng stress. I heart the Christmas tree on our living room talaga especially when its lights are open.

grrrrrr....I'm hungry!

Kk on the rescue...super namiss ko ito and sa office pa lang gusto ko ng kainin pero naisip ko na di ko maappreciate kasi ang nasa harap ko pa rin is isang tambak na documents. Donuts and coffee match perfectly to eased my hunger and cravings. Super I heart KK talaga.

I hope everyday something will ease the stress, pressures, and tiredness I got from the office. Simple things heart me

Right Track

I thought I will be on the right track today.

Before leaving the house as I usually do I send a prayer but while I'm inside the elevator I asked Him to give me more patience. I left late last night at the office and still my desk is the same...paper everywhere; in short messy. I'm not used of working in messy or crowded desk mas nakakastress that's why I make it a point to maintain my desk clean & organize as possible but yesterday di ko na nagawa yon.

This morning when I reached my desk, turned on my PC and read my mails. Ohhh..a mail from "lolo". It's nice to read messages or even a simple email to those persons you really know na nakikita yung worth mo di ba. A simple email from him extending his regards to whole staff of the department...what to expect from my colleagues e sympre pa super natuwa sila and can't control to make comparison again to "tatang". Aside from simple regards "lolo" also gave me yung diary na ipinadala sa kanya ng isang company thru courier, so I have 2010 diary na...hehehe

My so called assistant is absent today..I can't blame him naman e siguro super napagod at nastressed na rin sa dami ng trabaho na di lang urgent kundi "instant" kailangan. I don't have any choice kung di ako yung gumawa ng iba nyang work...hayyyy, wish ko lang matapos ko itong mga documents ko na 3 days na yata dito sa desk ko!

Even the cleaner sa CR she noticed din pala na di na ako nakakapunta don usually kasi after lunch break ako nagpupunta but this week around 3pm na siguro. She asked me if I am absent yesterday...hayy at least she noticed me na di nya ako nawawala ako.

Around 11:00 am this morning, inside the CR I found myself praying...emotionally praying & asking Him to give me wisdom to finish everything today. And when I returned to my desk I heard myself humming one of my favorite song. I feel relieved because I know that He will lead me through.

I can say I am on a right track now....

LEAD ME LORD

Lead me Lord, lead me by the hand
And make me face the rising sun
Comfort me through all the pain
That life may bring
There's no other hope
That I can lean upon
Lead me Lord Lead me all my life
Walk by me, walk by me across
The lonely road that I may face
Take my arms and let your hadn
Show me the way
Show the way to live inside your heart
All my days, all my life

Refrain: You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I (just) cannot live alone
Let me stay
By Your guiding love
All through my life
Lead me Lord
Lead me Lord Even though at times
I'd rather go alone my way
Help me take the right direction
Take Your road Lead me Lord
And never leave my side
All my days
All my life
You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I (just) cannot live alone
Let me stay By Your guiding love
All through my life
All through my days Lead me, O Lord Lead me Lord

Something to Ponder: TRUST

The week is not yet over and Wednesday is favorite day but today is different. I don't know if only because I'm stressed and pressured on my work. Last night before I go to sleep I planned everything that I'm going to do today as yesterday I was whole day busy doing just an "extra curricular" work. But it seems that what happened yesterday will be more stressfull today. I already used of too much workload and working under pressure but what I'm not used is working for those people who wants all things from us is "instant" and people who are talking to their staffs sarcastically. I know its not nice to compare thats why we are not comparing "lolo" from them because "lolo" is uncomparable.

My prayer as this moment:

Lord, give or extend the patience within us. Control our temper and may we stay calm as you are during those times that the evil is provoking you. Amen

Thank You

THANK YOU might be one of the shortest word but its very meaningful. I found this picture at "encouregement today" and I find it cute. Appreciating all the things done  to us is just a two words to be returned. Complimenting us and  making our day is just  two words to utter for them to feel the same way. Its not hard to say THANK YOU but as I observes many people are still not used in saying this magic word for all the good things  that was done to them.

THANK YOU, for reading this  entry :)

If I Only Had..

They say people doesn't know how to be contented. We are aiming and reaching for more even though we already have. And sometimes because of aspirations to have more and more we didn't notice that we are already becoming greedy and hurt other people.

If only I had...

A beautiful body; a pretty face; a flawless skin.

"hay naku sis alam ni Lord kung lahat nasa atin yan baka madagdagan ang mga shulandi dito sa mundo or baka we are not who we are now baka maaga tayo nagasawa or nabuntis kaya...hahahaha" That's our dialogue to each other, everytime me and my friend Cecille are upset on looking good to ourselves or everytime we see someone who looks physically perfect.

If only I had...

Pursuance into College of Law

Its not new to those people who knows me well that being a lawyer is really my dream. I didn't had a hard time to think what course will I take up when I reached college...I took up Political Science, a preparatory course for law. But due to some personal considerations I didn't took up law after I graduated from college instead I pursued Master in Public Administration. "E di sana Jen nandon ka sa kabilang building kung naglaw ka at tska mas genius kang tingnan kasi lagi kang may bitbit na Consti,/ Civil code" sagot ko naman "kung naglaw ako I will not meet you guys and definitely you will not be my best friend" "sabagay at tsaka baka pagtaasan mo lang ako ng kilay kapag nakasabay mo ako sa elevator" my best friend Ian replied.

If only I had...

a well paid job in Pinas

What is a "well paid" employee anyway? For me sana lang di naman yung almost kalahati na ng salary e napupunta sa tax di ba or pagdating ng November e halos wala na talaga sinusweldo sa laki ng mga deductions sa kung anuanong mga misc. I liked to be in a public service..not like its I loved to be. That's why I didn't missed the opportunity when I had a chance to work in a government office. I even chose to be a contractual employee in a government agency than to be an HR Assistant in a bank. But sometimes fulfilling the dreams within us and doing the things that will make us happy is not enough, there are some considerations na kelangan nating maggive way to achieve a better life. "hay Jen at least ikaw nabibili mo ang gusto mo, nakakatulong ka sa family mo, may kotse ka na, mas napaganda mo pa yung bahay nyo e kung andito ka lang sa Pinas di mo magagawa yon or it will take so many years to do sa sweldo dito" yon ang mga line na lagi ko na lang naririnig sa mga friends ko twing imi-meet ko sila. But on some point they are right.

If only I had...

A family of my own at the age of 28

Honestly never in mind I grasp that thought of being married at my 20s or cuddling my own child pero pano nga kaya kung meron na. I'm not afraid of handling responsibilities naman but I think I'm not ready to do so. I have so many things that I want to try...things that I want to do on my own. "mas maganda kung parang barkada o kaibigan mo lang ang mga anak mo kapag tumanda ka, imagine if you get married at 20 pag nag 40 ka may 20 years old ka ng anak" Oo nga no..they have point " e naku ewan ko lang kung may anak ka na kung magagawa mo lahat ng gusto mo"

If only I had..

A lovelife?

Never in a wek yata walang nagtatnong sa akin if I had a boyfriend and dahil I'm used to that tinatawanan ko na lang. Sa busy sched. ko from 8 to 9pm nasa office ako do you think I will have a time to be on him or to go out on a date??? "pag di na ako busy ibibigay na ni Lord"

If only I had..

Lots of money

Siguro lahat naman ng tao wants to be rich. When I was still young sabi ko 'pag yumaman ako magpapatayo ako ng hospital or ng school at yung mga bata na can\t afford is free na lang. But life is not as simple as that; sometimes money pa ang nagiging cause for a person para maging masama. Minsan sinasabi ko sgro kaya d ako ginawa ni Lord na mayaman kasi ayaw Nya na makalimutan ko sya.

All things that we have now and who we are now is because we doesn't have all those "if only had" things. All the things we have now are meant to be for us; those things played and served important role of our past, present and even in our future.

If there's one thing I learned on my journey that is to be thankful on all the things I have and enjoy the company of the people besides me. Stay away from those "what if" and "if only's and enjoy the things that life has to offer.

Childish On Me

I love having cutie things like mickey mouse stuffs, maybe that's why people who don't know me personally called me "childish" Its not a big deal for me to be called as, maybe because I am used to it? or maybe I know the fact that its not true. Well...both
Again, somebody called me  "childish", he maybe the least person I am expecting but he did. This is the conversation I had  with him.

jen arellano: well, sge pag nsa USA ka na...padalhan mo na lang ako s pinas ha
jen arellano: hehehe
jen arellano: mababaw lang naman ako...
jen arellano: bag lang or mickey mouse stuff
jheng: hahaha...
jheng: mickey mouse
jen arellano: o bakit ka tumtawa
jen arellano: i started collecting mickey since 1997 pa
jheng: kasi batang isip ka pa rin...
jen arellano: b4 my room sa pinas really full of mickey mouse
jen arellano: ganon ba tingin m s akin isip bata?
jen arellano: well..its ur opinion
jheng: everyone has to have this child like character in himself
jheng: that's what gives us glow
jen arellano: ur the first person na ngsabi s akin n isi bata ako
jen arellano: well...ok lng
jheng: sorry kung na offend ka...
jen arellano: i dont care
jen arellano: ok lng
jen arellano: ur subject to ur own opinion
jheng: i am refering to the mickey mouse stuff
jen arellano: as i've said ok nga lng

Anyway its not a big deal for me, I know he doesn't mean it. And as I've said each person is subject to their own opinions; maybe I learned to be an open minded now and not be too sensitive in accepting other opinions and views.
I'm a "childlike" but I'm sure I'm not childish

SOMETHING TO PONDER: Prepare

"It ought to be the business of everyday to prepare for our final day"

We're always preparing for something, exerting effort to polish everything for a big event to be well organized and memorable but inspite of the hardships & effort in the end it didn't end up the way we want it to be.

Life is a journey and everyday we are submitting ourselves into a test. It is our duty to do the best we can for us to pass on that test. We are individually accountable to whatever results it will be.

Love Test

I am an e - subcriber of "UpWords with Max Lucado". His writings are very encouraging and realy helps to uplift spirit. Lately, due to busy schedule I missed to read many topics until now. I'm reading one email and after I delete, until the next mail come up. Maybe, it really meant for me to read this

The Love Test
by Max Lucado

Have you ever made decisions about your relationships based on your feelings instead of the facts? When it comes to love, feelings rule the day. Emotions guide the ship. Goose bumps call the shots. But should they? Can feelings be trusted? Can a relationship feel right but be wrong?

Feelings can fool you. Yesterday I spoke with a teenage girl who is puzzled by the lack of feelings she has for a guy. Before they started dating, she was wild about him. The minute he showed interest in her, however, she lost interest.

I'm thinking also of a young mom. Being a parent isn't as romantic as she anticipated. Diapers and midnight feedings aren't any fun, and she's feeling guilty because they aren't. Am I low on love? she wonders.

How do you answer such questions? Ever wish you had a way to assess the quality of your affection? A DNA test for love? Paul offers us one: "Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth" (1 Cor. 13:6 NIV). In this verse lies a test for love.

Want to separate the fake from the factual, the counterfeit from the real thing? Want to know if what you feel is genuine love? Ask yourself this:

Do I encourage this person to do what is right? For true love "takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth" (1 Cor. 13:6 JB).

If you find yourself prompting evil in others, heed the alarm. This is not love. And if others prompt evil in you, be alert.

Here's an example. A classic one. A young couple are on a date. His affection goes beyond her comfort zone. She resists. But he tries to persuade her with the oldest line in the book: "But I love you. I just want to be near you. If you loved me ..."

That siren you hear? It's the phony-love detector. This guy doesn't love her. He may love having sex with her. He may love her body. He may love boasting to his buddies about his conquest. But he doesn't love her. True love will never ask the "beloved" to do what he or she thinks is wrong.

Love doesn't tear down the convictions of others. Quite the contrary.

"Love builds up" (1 Cor. 8:1).

"Whoever loves a brother or sister lives in the light and will not cause anyone to stumble" (1 John 2:10).

"You are sinning against Christ when you sin against other Christians by encouraging them to do something they believe is wrong" (1 Cor. 8:12 NLT).

Do you want to know if your love for someone is true? If your friendship is genuine? Ask yourself: Do I influence this person to do what is right?

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Jen: Do I influence person/s to do what is right?

Jen: hmmm... yeah I think so I do

How about you, do you influence people to do what is right? How sure are you to yourself that you passed or you can pass the "love test"?

Change

To remain young...

one must CHANGE

-ALEX CHASE-

I'm glad....I did

Pampering Myself

I love giving treat to myself

Aside from shopping...i love going to parlor.

Every time na magbabakasyon ako sa Pinas, the next day go agad ako sa parlor. I don't care kahit gaano kahaba ang pila basta kelangan makapagpafoot spa agad ako and syempre with matching manicure na rin.

And syempre ang di pwedeng mawala sa itinerary ko ang hair treatment. I used to have a long hair since my college days but usually nakapony tail lang or 'pag may time ako magblower na nakahead band. But thru the influenced of my male best friend Ian I tried hair straigthenning kasi nga mejo wavy ang hair especially after ipony tail. Ok ang long hair mejo magastos nga lang sa treatment...conditioner, hot oil, hair spa,etc. Kasabay nang iba't ibang model ng cp nauso namn ang hair rebonding. My mom conviced me to try it e kasi sya nagparebond and since maganda sa kanya I try it also...yun nga lang more than 5x ang mahal ng price nya kesa sa hair straigthenning. Pero since crowning glory naman ang hair..go!

She is Asia from Index Salon, the one who patiently did my first hair rebond. Ay grabe it took 8 hours bago natapos lahat...as I've told her para na ako nagbyahe from Pinas to Qatar. Pero kahit super nakakainip at nakakaantok sulit naman.

Here in Doha...

It is a monthly routine for me & my cousin Leslie to visit parlor, its our way of pampering ourselves after tiring days of working. We are not that vain but we feel relaxed everytime we visit Elegance parlor or asked Ate Mel to give us a home service massage or facial.

Two weeks ago, we visited Elegance as usual pedicure and eyebrow threadding. I usually asked Ate Grace na itrim lang yung hair ko meaning same style pero that Friday Ate Grace asked me why not to try other style. I don't know pero this is the first time na walang kakabakaba akong sumagot ng "yes". Usually kasi lagi akong may doubt kasi baka di bumagay or baka pangit...hayyyy, pero nung araw na yon no doubt.

And this is the result.....

Something to Ponder: My Refuge

Last night before I sleep I opened my Bible and since I don't have any idea what book of it to read again I told to myself whatever chapter ang una kong makikita is yon ang babasahin ko and this verse ang unang nakita ng mga mata ko =)

Psalm 62:8
Trust in Him at all times, O people;
pour out your heart before Him;
God is a refuge for us.

Isn't it feel good and amazing to think that God wants us to cry on Him especially in times of troubles? Isn't it nice to think that we have a very safe "hideouts" on His arms?I am happy and at peace to know that I have HIM as my refuge. That no one can hurt me if I'm with HIM and I am safe all the time on HIS arms. All we need to do is to continue to trust HIM at all times of our lives.

Sagip Kababayan

After the rain...
After the storm...
I know sun will shine once again.

Typhoon Ondoy marked the Philippine history as the heaviest rain fall
In just six hours many lives and properties were wiped out
But inspite of the tragic calamity, Filipinos proved once more that "bayanihan" is alive

All are equal...
People from different social class are all affected.
Mansions, bungalow, bahay kubo, condominiums and other type of houses are damaged by overflowing flood.
Social elites, showbiz personalities, politicians, common tao, and poor experienced how to stepped down, swam in the flowing flood, and stayed under the rain.
Ondoy open our eyes that nobody is superior on the mother earth revenge.

I am blessed...
My family is not affected by the typhoon.
They didn't experienced the hunger because no foods are available inside the fridge cause it was already eaten by the big waves of flood.
My family didn't experienced to be on top of the roof as it is the safest place where they can hide.
They didn't experienced the coldness brought by the wind and rain.
And most of all, we are blessed because we never experienced to loose loved ones due to Ondoy.

Yet, even I am away from my home country...
I feel the pain that they are going through
I see how hard they are coping now from the tragic experience
I cried with them since I saw them on TFC
I symphatized with them
I feel helpless just watching  them!
I know I can do something to help.

Hey guys its time for bayanihan !
Calling all my friends, colleagues, relatives, and all people who has a big heart
This is our time to share our blessings to them.

Take out your excess clothes on your cabinet and put it on the SK (samahang kababayan) box.
Polish your old shoes and wash your old slippers and put it on the SK box!

Give pledges
Instead of buying some wants or spending money to not so important things
Pull it out on your pocket and donate it to the needy.
A little sacrifice will caused a lot to them,
It may be a small amount on you but for them it cost a lot.

Once more, let us stretch our hands to our kababayans.
Reach them out and help to make a change on their life!

Who to Blame?

Since I watched the news from TFC regarding bagyong Ondoy in Philippines, I make it a point to follow every stories related. Last night after office I immediately sat down infront of our t.v. This is the only way para mas malaman ko kung ano na bang latest sa Pinas. Although I received pictures from emails mas gusto ko pa rin yung moving scene.
Bagyong Ondoy is the heaviest rainfall in Philippine history. It took 6 hours of continuous raining. At first naisip ko its just 6 hours pero bakit ganong kagrabe ang outcome. Until ako na rin ang sumagot sa tanong ko...hay sad to say pero there are only few trees na nga pala sa Pinas, some areas kung makakita ka man ng green is not trees or plants but colored roof of houses na. Some mountains are already flat into plain, some forests are now a residential areas and some are commercial areas na. Sometimes nakakapagisip din di ba...is it really worth it for a country to be a commercialized or modern kung ganito ang kapalit?

As I watched the video clips of the overflowing flood makikita talaga na napakaraming basura ang lumulutang especially plastics which only proves that may kakulangan din tayong mga tao sabi nga "ang basurang ikinalat mo babalik din sa'yo". But it sad to say na kahit yung mga naging responsible in taking care of their environment at mga batang inosente pa lang is nakaranas ng ganti ng mother nature.
In just a snap....
In just a wink...
In just a six hours...
maraming buhay ang nawala
maraming properties ang nasayang
But no one to blame...
Cause we are all responsible of taking care of our nature...
Hopefully it will be a wake up call for us to take care our mother earth
And may we not experience again her revenge...

Ako ang Simula

Since I worked abroad mas naging nationalistic yata ako.

Mas natutunan ko how to be vigilant sa mga issue/s related Filipinos; mas naging concern ako sa mga magagawa ako even in a little way to help our kabayans. Mas naapreciate ko ang mga tagalog music; mas tinatangkilik ko ang mga pagkaing Pinoy....

Although nung nasa Pinas pa ako I'm active in participating to government campaigns. I really make sure that I am aware on the issues arounds me and much more when I started work in the government. Working in a government is far away sa iniisip ng marami na nakaupo lang at sumusweldo every 15th and 30th of the month. For my experience, working in a government is continuous learning and dealing with people. Although may background na ako on how to work in the department where I was assigned then, halos araw-araw kelangan ko magaral...Local Government Code become our bible in the office. Masaya, mahirap, machismis...hay ano pa ba. But one thing I am sure about myself if I will be given a chance to work in the government again especially on the same agency I will still accept it.

2010 is the year of another hope for Philippines. Bagong mga mukha ang makikita nating magsasalita sa media...magdedeliver ng SONA at haharap sa hatol ng bayan. Naitanong ko minsan sa sarili ko kelan ba ako huling bumoto??? when was the last time I exercise my right of suffrage, kaya naman when I learned na may registration for absentee voting na gagawin dito I didn't hesitate to register and be a part of those million Filipinos na makikiisa sa 2010 to make a change...makikiisa sa pagbabago!

I remember my law professor telling us na walang rights magcomplain ang mga taong di bumoto sa ano mang sistema meron ang mga taong namumuno sa Pinas kasi they never been a part in any means of the changes that everyone is aiming for Philippines.

I am proud na kaisa ako sa pagbabago...e ikaw kaisa ka ba?

Something to Ponder: Releasing Anger Appropriately

I don't know if its a coincidence or what, but all I know its God's plan for me to read this article last night.

Everyday I received a forwarded email from a friend. He subscribes to Purpose Driven Life Connection - Daily Devotional, and eventhough the said email...i mean this message was forwarded to me last September 9, 2009 it was never late that only last night I was able to read that...Its very timely for me.

God never delays....

Thanks Arnold for sending me a daily email

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"If you become angry, do not let your anger lead you into sin" (Ephesians 4:26 TEV)

There are helpful ways and harmful ways to release your anger. For instance, sometimes we'd rather remain angry than admit to our anger. Yet, the Bible says that to be angry and not admit that you are angry is lying. And that's a sin.

Keep in mind: anger is not necessarily wrong. It only becomes wrong if we release it in a way that is inappropriate or destructive. My experience as a pastor is that most of us learned to express our anger when we were two or three years old, and we're still expressing our anger in the same way as adults. Needless to say, this simply doesn't work.

Most people express their anger in such a way that they end up farther away from their goal than they were before they became angry. Anger, expressed inappropriately, has the opposite effect of producing the intended results. Blowing up at people never produces lasting change; it only produces more anger and alienation. We know that but we still do it. It doesn't produce lasting change.

Something to keep in mind is that anger is never really the root problem. It is usually a symptom that reveals one of three things is happening: hurt, fear, frustration. These are the three things that make us angry, and this is why we should always stop and cool down. It allows us to think:

- Am I hurt?
- Am I afraid? Perhaps feeling threatened, or that I'm going to lose something of value?
- Or, am I frustrated?
Understanding the source of your anger will help you respond in an appropriate manner, so that your anger does not "lead you into sin" (Ephesians 4:26 TEV).

Thursday Blues

Had you ever experienced na halos naiiyak ka na because naiinis ka?

And it seems na everything is not right and not according to your plan?

Well, I felt the same yesterday...as I have said to myself last night "Thursday is not my day"

I woke up with a heavy head...still I have my migraine, actually di nga ako nakatulog because of that

I usually planned what outfit I will going to wear the next day but since I'm not feeling well I was not able to prepare my clothes for the next day.

I was in front of my closet for about 30 minutes yata thinking what I'm going to wear. Nakailang palit yata ako ng blouse and even accessories from earrings to bracelet.

Sa office half day ako na di nakagamit ng PC cause the I.T configured it for the security system. Other software was removed and some new programs was installed. Password pa lang problema na...hay then all of my files are secured so meaning I cannot edit,save or print what I have on my PC. Before lunch I received a bunch of PR to process...huh??! how can I do it without PC. At last naging ok nman nung lunch time kasi imagine kung wala akong PC ng lunch anong gagawin ko sa desk ko?! to read a book yun na lang. After lunch the IT come to my desk again and fix the problem so akala ko ok na until....hay every 5 minutes nagrerestart sya automatically.... parang nakatimer talaga. Super inis na inis na ako talaga cause I have a lot of documents na sa desk ko. And it is very impossible to work on it without PC.

Thursday night is time for shopping or malling, go out with friends or to watch movies with colleagues but me....hay I stayed in the office until 9pm. Ako na lang ang staff sa department na naiwan. I punched out at 9:11pm. The driver called me and told me that he was a bit delayed maybe 10 minutes, until.....lahat na ng mga boss e nagalisan na! In fairness naman to bosses nagoffer naman sila to drop me home but I chose to stay in the office and wait for the driver. I waited for almost 1 hour, mga 9:55 na yata sya dumating. Of course he knows that I am mad. I'm not the type of person who will shout on you if I'm mad or angry, I'd rather choose to be in silence cause I know I will bursts into tears if I will talk to you. He explained every details why it took an hour to pick me up. And I told him that next time kung ano yung sinabi nya yun ang gawin like what he said na 10 mins lang. I know its not his fault maybe that's why also instead of arguing to him I just keep quiet until I felt that my tears are falling. Actually ganon talaga ako 'pag naiinis plus pagod ka pa physically and mentally. When we are already near home may inaabot pa syang biscuits kasi madami daw, sa inis ko siguro kinukwento nya kung sino nagbigay sa kanya pero di ko naintindihan. But kahit inis na inis na ako I politely said thank you pa rin naman.

When I reached home, nobody is there and when I entered our room I saw myself in the mirror; I saw that my face was red and I'm still teary eyed.

I'm glad cause I have Jen & Kuya Jheng who sent simple messages to comfort me.

In times like that when anger on the situation itself occurs and nobody is to blame the only thing we can do is to pray...."Lord ease the anger that I have on my heart and give me peace and comfort" Kahit hindi ok ang Thursday ko, I know Friday will be a good day for me!....it did