Trust His Heart

Since I got back from my vacation last October 2014 I am praying to God to give me provision on what step should I make next. I'm not getting any younger and I really want a stable career. For almost 9 years I am working in an international construction firm; people from construction project based will understand me that the stability from such kind of business is not for lifetime, I mean all depends on the projects that the company will get.

The Lord answered my prayer, He gave me provisions and use people as an instrument to take my first step in applying to the position that I really wanted. Even before I worked here in abroad I really want a job wherein I can directly help people. I even trade a regular bank position over a contractual government staff. I remember how people asked me why I chose to be in a public service over a job that is stable and earn high, at first I asked myself too "bakit nga ba?", I enjoy being with people, helping them even in the simplest way I can. Hindi ako mayaman and sometimes iniisip ko sana nga mayaman na lang ako so I can help more but in the end I'd still wanted to have a simple life, I'm afraid that I might be boastful when I become rich and famous, ok na ako sa kung anong meron ako though I'm striving to have more pa rin naman.

Last February, my friend asked me if I want to apply in a government position, to give it a try again. My friend knows how I really love to. I had a not so formal interview with the labor attache here. I really miss being in the public service, and as he brief me on the scope of job if ever I will be hired, sobrang naexcite ako since hindi na bago sa akin yong mga ganong trabaho and the most exciting part of it is I can have interaction to those distressed OFW under the agency's custody. After a week, another friends sent me a message confirming if I can go back as early as March 3to assume the position in a government agency where they are working too. To make the story short I wasn't able as I need at least a month to notify my present company but they told me that they will be giving me another chance and notify me again if there will be another vacant position.
Two weeks ago I received the confirmation from Philippines regarding my application for the vacant position here, yes even dito ka magaassume ng position since its a Philippine government agency need na sa Pilipinas pa rin iproprocess lahat ng application. I submitted an incomplete requirements such as medical test, I need health card pa kasi dapat government hospital dito ang magcertify, I waited for 3 weeks and I'm getting a hard time to have it. Today morning the agency confirmed to me that the deadline is over.
Honestly, after so many years ngayon ko lang ulit na-feel yung parang nadisappoint pero wala ka namang magawa kasi its beyond your control, yung ang dami mong tanong pero wala namang mahanap na sagot, yung okay ka pero bakit naiiyak ka.  
While checking my FB I saw that one familiar name commented on the photo I posted. Oh its my former boss and mentor to my previous government agency I worked with, parang kasi ngayon lang sya nagFB kaya for so many years I don't have any means of communication with her. All the memories I had with them flashback, bigla ko tuloy naisip what if magapply kaya ulit ako don this time as a permanent na.
The only words that comes into mind is God's promise in His word in Romans 8:28

From the time I started my application, ipinagpray ko na and I always include it on my prayer. I entrusted it to the Lord, that His will be done kaya siguro kahit may konting panghihinayang mas madali ko syang na-let go. And at the same time God sent me an angle this morning, I found one of "ate" in church whom I look up to, I consider her as my mentor in the church. I am thankful for all the comforting words and sharing me word of God for me to see more clearly and hold on tighter to God's promises. I am really blessed and grateful that the Lord is always  besides  me - to catch me and comfort me; He is always ready before I utter that I need Him.

Ate gave me a line from the song Trust His Heart and it really soothes my heart. Thanks Ate Agnes!

 

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His Heart

I trust His plans for me, I know and always He has better than what I have for myself. 

Lord, You know my heart, my desires and my needs..continue to guide me and lead me, give discernment and wisdom in whatever decision I will make. Continue to teach me and mold me to trust You always and completely. Your will thy be done on me, in all aspects and areas of my life Lord I entrust to You.

 

Please pray for me also. I know that prayer is the best powerful tool we can have to be heard by the Lord.

God bless us all

Don't Rush Things

I don't know if its just hormonal but lately I have so many things in my mind. I have so many things in my mind that I want to do, so many plans but I don't even know where, when and even how to start. All I am sure is GOD is in control of me. I'm talking to myself and assure that the Lord is always working, that despite of His silence He is listening to me, that even sometimes I feel He is not answering some of my prayers, He is there watching over me and moving on me.

Like anyone else I am just a human. I have emotions and heartaches. My body get tired and my mind blown away. Like anyone else, my life sometimes is also a roller coaster, full of ups and suddenly it drop down. I feel sadness too, sometimes I feel empty as well.  I become frustrated too when I didn't achieve something I really want. Like any other I am only human.

Sometimes I think of those people who because of depression and even due to frustration was become mentally ill.It sad to know that because someone doesn't love and care, their life seems to be wasted. 

Everyday is a second chance and those emotions are just only by passers. Don't let them win over you but instead be an over comer, show them how you that despite of the not so good thing that happened into your life, you still have million reasons to smile and be happy. Don't cling on your emotions they are not a part of you, remember when you were still a child, everything seems so red, no black nor blues. Happy moments are destined to be always in our mind and in our heart so whenever loneliness are passing by, those happy memories will become your sword.

God gave us free will to do things but don't be too confident and rely to yourself alone that you can do everything. You need GOD in your life. There will be times that you'll get tired. You'll need a comforter, you'll be needing a counselor, a provider, a healer, a Savior and so much more and you can only find that to JESUS.

 Have you ever say "thank you" from the time you open your eyes today? Have you ever say thank you for unexpected things and circumstances in your life, that you consider miracles?

I can't imagine my life without GOD. Maybe I am one of those people inside psychiatric hospital or maybe I have a wasted life or on the other hand enjoying a lonely luxurious life. No one knows.

My life isn't perfect and it isn't an ideal for some. But for me, I am happy and contented but it doesn't mean that I will stop to be better. From time to time I am reminding myself how blessed I am for having the life I have now. 

I don't need to rush for all of my plans to fulfill. I don't need to pressure myself over things that I want to accomplish. Anything worth having is anything worth waiting for.

For how many times God did a miracle in my life, for how many times He opened my eyes and made me realized that His plans are better than mine, that every "no" I received from people are another "yes" for a bigger and better plan He have for me. 

In my mind and in my heart, I will hold on to His words:

" Many are the plans of a man's heart, but its the Lord's purpose that prevails" - Proverbs 19:21

"For I know the plans I have in you", declared the Lord "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and future" - Jeremiah 29:11

Hey October!

"wake me up when September ends..."

Welcome October!

September has been a tough month for me but in the end are realizations how all things work for good. 

I finished my medications last September 25, during that time I realized that I must take care of my health. I'm not getting any younger and while anything is still normal and functioning in my body, better to take care it more. And starting today October 1, a healthy challenge from my lunch buddies are agreed - good luck Kuya Rudolf and Nelson! 

My highest praises and thanksgiving to the Lord for always being in full control over me and whatever battles I'm facing. This might the biggest of all and I thank God, He showed me what is His plans - ibang iba nga naman sa plano ko... Lord iba ka po talaga kapag Ikaw ang kumilos!  

"The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps" Proverbs 16:9

People in our lives is either a lesson or a blessings. I'm glad as I walk continuously on my journey mas nakikilala ko kung sino sa kanila ang lesson at ang blessing. There are people who will smile at you when they are facing to you but it doesn't mean they are your friend, and there are people who will frown at you but it doesn't mean they hate you.

"Do not be deceived: “Bad company ruins good morals." I Corinthians 15:33

September brought me a lot of struggles but every struggles was surpassed and turned into blessings. God is really good all the time. He will never let His children suffer more than they can take. Everyday is a blessings and everyday is a thanksgiving too.

Midnight of October first I already claimed that this month would be a bountiful month - full of hopes, joys and overflowing blessings. I claimed that God will continue to move on me and to my family, that He will comfort us on His loving arms and fight for us for the battles that may bring. There will be changes and adjustments but I know the Lord is in control of everything; there will be times of serenity but it doesn't mean sorrows but happiness and joys from our heart. Distance is just a matter of meters and kilometers but a family will always be bind not by any string but love. 

There were times that we need to sacrifice our plans and even our own lives for others, for our loved ones. I'm would be one of the happiest person to do that just for my family to be alright. God has so many purpose allowing things to happen, and as long us we are in full trust with Him also He will always full control to be with us.

I surrendered my plans to the Lord and I'm giving Him the full control of it not only my plans but my life. I am nothing with Him. 

"Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4

Like me, anytime you can talk to God. Nothing is impossible with Him.

Watch out for more and more of stories this October :-) I would love to share more guys! Oopps I forgot to tell this is my nephews Justine Jacob a.k.a. Jj or "banog" and my loving mother's month

 Happy October First!

85 days till Christmas :-)

GOD BLESS US ALL

Don't Panic! He's In Control

Every person is not exempted to have problems, to bump with challenges nor troubles in life. Do you know any person who didn't experience any problems? Well lets put it this way...kung walang problema, how do you see the world? sasabihin mo naman e di masaya, kasi wala ngang problema. But have you ever consider the fact na kung walang problema sa mundo but still the attitude of the people are still the same, problema pa rin yon di ba? mas malala pa nga siguro. Kung ang lahat ng tao ay mayaman sasabihin mo naman e di maganda kasi wala ng pulubi, wala ng magugutom but still may away kasi ang bawat tao ay magpapataasan at maghihilahan pababa, problema pa rin di ba?

Hindi mo ba naiisip kung lahat ng tao ay nagkakaproblema bakit yung iba mong kakilala parang hindi naman nagkakaroon. Tanungin mo sila maaring isasagot nila sa'yo "nasa nagdadala lang yan" which is true if you know how to handle your problems or the situations where you are it would be easy to pretend as if nothing is happening but still if you look into their eyes you can see the sorrow, the pain , and the worries within their heart. They might pretend and hide behind those smiles but still there will be no inner peace. But if you have GOD in you, if you have a relationship with the LORD everything will be as easy as you think. Even the storm will calm itself, the darkness will be lighted, and you will feel the peace - no need to pretend that you're fine and tell everyone that you're ok cos they are the one who will ask you "why it seems everything is alright inspite and despite of what you're going through" and if you have GOD within you you will just say "I'm fine cos GOD is in control of everything, His will be done..."

I've been going to difficult times since last week but I truly praise and glorify GOD for giving me the strength to overcome all of it. Sabi ko nga hindi hahayaan ni Lord na lumipas ang even half day man lang para bigyan Nya ako ng solution sa lahat. Truly He can give all the things we've ask in just a snap.

 

You don't need to spend money just to talk with the Lord, all you need is to call Him through prayers and listen to His answer.

Have you ever try to call to God? if not this is the time to call Him. Talk to Him and I am sure He will answer you.

Whom shall I fear? Whom shall I be afraid of ? If the LORD is with me...

 

People may doubt you, they might hurt you and push you in troubles but as long as you are with GOD no one can harm you...no one can hurt you.

Don't panic! The Lord is in control of everything. All you need is to let Him enter into your life. Ask forgiveness for all the sins that you've done; accept Him as Your personal Savior and live life according to Him.

Consider Others Better than Yourselves

 

How I wish and pray that all people will leave at least according to this Word. Well if not by all lets start within ourselves. Lets give love with another - kung sisimulan natin sa ating mga sarili at ipapasa natin sa iba its not impossible to spread the love of Jesus. So call ka ba? let start to pass the love and shared whatever good deeds we can share. Am I getting idealistic? I don't think so.  Let's start by reminding ourselves to live everyday according to this bible verse - the humility, humbleness, kindness, and love.

God bless everyone..

Lets keep the light of love and faith burning :-)

Nothing is Impossible

Nothing is really impossible with GOD if we will only trust Him and let Him lead our path.
Happy Tuesday
God bless