Sunday, June 10, 2018

Reading between Pictures

I love looking at pictures. It shows ones' personality. It depicts emotions - happy, sad, funny and everything that an ordinary eyes can't see. 
May 25, 2018, we celebrated mother's day in the church. Honoring the Lord on His goodness and faithfulness to the lives of our mothers. Daughters are also invited to attend the event, how I wish I could be with my mom to be on that kind of event - I miss her.
Just finished downloading, editing, and uploading 300+ pictures taken on the event and can't help to have some favorite shots. Thank you to bro.Nan for holding my camera ^_^
Here are some of my personal favorite shot. No much caption needed.



GRATEFULNESS - "We did it Ma"


"I will wipe your tears"





Tuesday, September 26, 2017

Meet the Monk

I remember the first time I saw monks way back 2006 in Bahrain airport. I don't know why I am afraid to them, maybe because I was just shocked because that's my first time to see people who dressed like them and they seemed so serious and doesn't know how to smile.
Out of curiosity during our tour at Tooth Relic in Kandy, Sri Lanka I was one of the four campers who entered the temple. I asked first one of the campers if its possible to take photo with a monk. She told me we should ask permission first since like any other not all monks are friendly and will give way.

As form of respect, you can see some signs that selfie is not allowed inside and your back should not in front of their statues when taking pictures. And when they caught you to disobey the protocol, oh my immediately they will get your camera or phone, check it and if found selfie photos taken inside, they will immediately ask you to delete. When you are visiting anywhere, whether its a religious complex or anywhere, the key word should be obey and respect.
Its quiet inside the temple and though I really want to take a photo with the monk, I was hesitant to do so. I'm thinking - maybe its not allowed also since we're inside or what if they will reject us. So after roaming inside the temple, we go out as usual. But behind my mind I really need to have at least one shot of photo with a monk, since I may not have an opportunity to have one.
Good thing I have the boys - I don't know exactly who approached the monk. The next thing I know is Nan is asking me to stand beside the monk and taking picture.
I want to ask questions to him but obviously (flower on his hands) he needs to go inside the temple. So I just asked the help of Wikipedia to answer the questions on my mind :) The traditional Buddhist wear robes. The robe is generally called civara. Antarvasa is the inner robe covering the lower body while for the upper body its uttarasanga. Other items that may have been worn are: the kushalaka - the waist cloth and the samakaksika, the buckled belt. 

Guys if visiting temple is part of your tour, my advise for you is not to wear loud color shirt or dress. Believe me cos the guy next to me experienced it already, right William? Isn't William and the monk has some resemblance? Just thinking bagay siguro yung robe kay William hehehe.

And see those policemen in the background, they are not just standing for nothing they really working and their eyes are rolling to all tourists. Guys be an law abiding tourists. Respect and obey their policies or else in the end you'll be in trouble like what our fellow tourist experienced.

Thanks to our tour guide Mr. Brandy for talking to these not ordinary policemen cos according to Janix they have stars on their uniform or else maybe William will sleep on the cell :)

Monday, September 25, 2017

Who I am - A Call to Grow Beyond

If someone asks you "Who are you?" what will be your answer.
That's the first question we encountered on the Grow Beyond Family Camp Sri Lanka 2017. The question sound so easy to answer. 
Here's the exact answer I wrote on my paper:
I am Jennifer Cleofe Arellano
I am a child of God
I am a daughter of a King
I am the eldest & the only daughter in the family
I am an expectant from the Lord on this camp.

Its common to start by telling our name. Our name is our first identity for others to know us. But sometimes even our name is a duplicate of someone. I tried to search my name in google and voila there are some people holding exactly the same name that I have. How can our identity be our own if someone has it also?
The question is "Who are you?" We usually answered that I am a graduate of this course, I am a manager or employee, etc. or sometimes even stating our possessions and the like. But is that "who are you?" or "what you are?"

Sometimes we see and define ourselves on how others see and define us. We tend to forget that we are unique, we are peculiar and we are created in the image of our Maker. 

"I am not what I think I am and I am not what you think I am. I am what I think that you think I am"

Before, I really avoid looking at the mirror. I am afraid to see the image - the distorted image in front of me. But after the assurance I received from my Maker that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, and that I am created from inmost being and knitted together in my mother's womb, I know I have nothing to fear on the image that I see on the mirror. Through God who strengthens me and give me enough daily dosage of His grace, I can stand and conquer the fear that I have - the fear of rejection, the fear of being outcast, and so on. People may judge us for what or who we are and not, but Jesus will not. He love us for who we are. He is always ready to embrace us, all we need is to surrender ourselves to Him, have faith and give Him our full trust to manage our lives.

Until you do not overcome your earthly identity then you'll never be free and to overcome it, there's only ONE WAY - to accept JESUS as your PERSONAL SAVIOR.
Our God intended us to be who we are for a purpose. By our strength we cannot live on that purpose, only through His grace, only through Him we can do it.
GOD DESIGNED ONE COPY OF YOU, make sure you live on it.

A Call to GROW BEYOND our Earthly Identity
" For this favor I bend my knees before the Father, from whom every fatherhood in heaven and on earth is named, in order that He may grant to you- according to His riches and glory - power to become strong through His Spirit in the Inner Man, for Christ to dwell in your hearts through faith, to become firmly rooted and established in love, in order that you may become strong (enough) to apprehend together with all the saints, what is the breadth, the length, the height, and depth, to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, in order that you may be filled to all the fullness of God" Ephesians 3:14-19

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

A Love Letter to Self

Dear Jen,

Its been 36 years that we known each other though sometimes we doubt each other - capabilities, strengths and even our feelings towards situations, people and even to our own. We been together from the start, you heard my first cry and saw the first tears on my eyes You are with me on my first step and even on my first fall. You witnessed how I tried to get all my achievements in life - its not easy by the way especially to live on the expectations of others and more harder to stand on your expectations. But we surpassed it together through the help of our Maker.

Its been more than three decades but I seldom thank you for what you've done. Sometimes I forgot to appreciate and admire you and to tell how much I love you. If there's one person that should care and love you more than others, it should be me. Forgive me if sometimes you whisper to me to stay away from those people who will only cause me pain but I still insist to be with them. Forgive me if there are times that you want to take rest from a busy schedule but I still insisting that I should, I must finish everything within the day. Forgive me, if instead of listening to you I listened and cared first to other people. 
Through the years we're together I learned a lot . I thank the people who molded us, people who been our guide and inspiration to go on with life. People who are not selfish in giving their admiration and care. 
As we continue to step forward, always remember that I love you and I will always care for you. Our battle is not yet over. We still have fears to conquer and struggles to win.  Don't be afraid of what future will bring us, our God, our Savior is always with us. Let's just keep the faith in Him and continue the good fight of faith.

Stay strong...
You are loved...
You are cherished...
You are beautiful..
You are a daughter of a King...
And therefore no one can harm you.


Monday, May 22, 2017

Stuck in the Lift

May 21, 2017, around 11:20 pm after YAM in the church, feel so tired physically but my heart and spirit are fully recharged of His words and encouragements.
The topic on the service is about Mastering Emotions: Conquering your fears with the Lord. I didn't expect that at the same night, last night I will be able to apply what I've heard. I was stuck in the elevator. Tuwang tuwa pa naman ako kasi naka-zero so I will not wait for that long. I pressed 3 then wait to go up while browsing my phone and after a minute I stared at the screen since naramdaman ko na parang hindi nagli-lift, still on zero. I keep pressing the number but di sya nagfufunction, I pressed the open button but its the same. I keep on praying - Lord na-stuck po yata ako. The first that I asked sana Lord wag magblackout sa loob and I asked Him to give me peace and calmness. I saw a mobile number of the guard on duty and he anwered. While waiting for help I keep reciting Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear for I am with you". I was reminded also by what we have discussed in YAM - where to look when you are in fear. I called my siblings in YAM to ask prayer and its one way also to have someone to talk with so I will remain calm. After I think almost 15minutes the elevator was forcefully opened. The struggle in getting up from inside (yung parang nahulog ka sa balon na kelangan mong umakyat). Thanks to the lives of AMNCO security guards in our compound, they responded fast. The first attempt to get up was failed, maybe dahil na rin sa ilang minuto na ako na nasa loob at kulang sa oxygen parang wala na akong energy pa na umakyat. So I asked them to get a chair, so after na makakuha ng chair I tried pero di pa rin, so one of the guard go down inside the elevator and after few attempts, I was up. 
Ang bilis ng application ng lesson about mastering emotions :-)
God is good all the time. If we will seek Him and run to Him first, everything will always be fine.
Glory to God

Monday, September 5, 2016

Program Family - Team Building & Training 2016

People usually don't believe me everytime I tell them na mahiyain ako noon. Yup, I am super mahiyain, nagsasalita naman ako at nakikipagusap sa tao but not as approachable as I am today. I remember nga na kapag nagpa-followup ako sa mga companies na inapplyan ko, I asked my tita pa to do the follow up for me. I don't know if its the confidence that's lacking on me or there's a fear within me. 
When I started to work abroad I really prayed to the Lord to give me courage to speak and tell people what's on my mind. My mom and other people who know me well was shocked when they saw on "friendster" my photo holding a microphone in the midst of people, me as an MC. From then on, little by little my self-confidence started to boost. Then one time there was an announcement in the church looking for an MC/ presider for Friday service. It took me few weeks before I decide to register for a training. Praise God from then until now by the grace of the Lord I'm still standing.

I am a part of Program Department in the church which concerned mainly on the orderliness of church events and activities.
Last August 26, 2016 we had our first team building as well training for all the members of the Program Team - MC, ushers, documentary team, and service team.
I'm so thankful and happy seeing new faces of brethren who really want to be used for the glory of the Lord. It took me almost a week to prepare for everything - from topics, ice breakers and games.
In everything that we do, we should know the reason behind why we are doing those things and we should be reminded often so we can strive and give our best more.

As a team and family its important to know each other not only by name but a deeper side of one another - not to gossip or judge but to accept and to love.
People first instinct when you are in Program is that you have no stage freight or fear to approach and talk to others but its not, we all have fears that we need to deal and flaws that we need to polish. That's why we need a continuous learning and training for us to give the best talent that God gave us, so we can serve Him with excellence.
Communication is one of the key that really matters in Program team, and we can't deny the fact that even we know each other we're still lacking for communication. We believe its not only the language barrier that hinders us but the fear of being rejected or ignored, that's why even in few hours we tried to be at ease on how to approach others and introduce ourselves for what we have - our personal testimonies.


After the team building -training, I am happy to see their happy faces and hearing their words of affirmation that they will stand and serve with the Lord with all their heart and strength. Ang lagi kong paalala sa kanila na lagi kong paalala sa sarili ko rin may naginvest ng time and effort sa akin para matuto ako, para makatayo ako and I want also na gawin din nila yon, - to share what they've learn and to teach others so they can be equip as well in serving the Lord.
To God be the glory for the success of that day!
To all new members, welcome to the Program family!
Program Family - Friday (others are not in the photo)

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

From Your Treasured Daughter

Found this prayer in one Christian site for single and I want to share it with you guys. This is a good reminder for single persons like me. Though there are a lot of temptations everywhere but if we are connected and holding on with the Lord, then we can able to stand straight and firm. I always says it to the teens in our church and even to the "not so teens" - NEVER COMPROMISE YOUR FAITH. Circumstances and people will test you but be strong not to disconnect yourself to the Maker. 
Being single is happy and free but it takes hardships and courage to deny all what this world is offering, but it does not mean that you can't. We can, as long as you are in the presence of the Lord, all things are possible. Pray fervently. Stay away from people and places that will forsake you into sin. Be friends with someone who will lead and accompany to you to the right path - to Jesus.

You know this road isn’t easy for me. You know my heart’s desire; to love and be loved. You’ve seen where I’ve come from in life, and you see where I’m going but in this moment, waiting on you is just so hard.
I’m surrounded by a culture pushing me into ideas and ways that I know don’t align up with your will for me. My heart tries to pursue, yet you tell me to wait.
I am your cherished daughter, and I know the plans you have for me are great. But I pray right now, in this moment you fill me with your peace.
Help me to become fully satisfied in you, before you bring my Boaz to me. Help me to trust the process of becoming the woman you desire for me to be.
You see my heart’s full potential. You know that when I love, I love deeply and when I fall, I fall hard.
Father save my heart for the man you have set aside for me. Prepare me to be the kind of wife he needs me to be.
I want to be a wife after your own heart.
Choose to fully chase after you, God. When you bring along the man I am meant to marry I will not stop chasing you. We will chase after you together. We will be each other’s helpmate.
We will love each other purely and deeply, but we will love you the most. We will constantly strive to keep you at the center of our lives and marriage, for I know you are the glue that will hold us together.
When my Boaz comes along I will not forget my first love. I will not forget the one who loved me first, and loved me enough to give me a godly man who will love, cherish, and treasure the woman that I am.
While I am here waiting on you, I will choose to serve. I will choose to chase after your heart. I will choose to embrace all that you have called me to be. Wherever you go, I’ll go. Wherever you stay, I will stay.
I will leave the world behind to chase after the God of my heart. I will trust in you, even when the road seems hard and I feel like I can’t take another step.
I will let you mold me into the wife you have called me to be. I will love, cherish, honor, and treasure my future spouse. I will rely on the covenant of marriage and your strength to bring me through when my emotions try to lead me astray.
I thank you for all that you are, and all that you are preparing me to be. I thank you that I can trust you with every single detail of my life, that everything that matters to me matters to you.
I know that in your perfect timing, when you see fit, you will bring us both together to love and serve you. Thank you for loving me.

~You’re treasured daughter