Trust His Heart

Since I got back from my vacation last October 2014 I am praying to God to give me provision on what step should I make next. I'm not getting any younger and I really want a stable career. For almost 9 years I am working in an international construction firm; people from construction project based will understand me that the stability from such kind of business is not for lifetime, I mean all depends on the projects that the company will get.

The Lord answered my prayer, He gave me provisions and use people as an instrument to take my first step in applying to the position that I really wanted. Even before I worked here in abroad I really want a job wherein I can directly help people. I even trade a regular bank position over a contractual government staff. I remember how people asked me why I chose to be in a public service over a job that is stable and earn high, at first I asked myself too "bakit nga ba?", I enjoy being with people, helping them even in the simplest way I can. Hindi ako mayaman and sometimes iniisip ko sana nga mayaman na lang ako so I can help more but in the end I'd still wanted to have a simple life, I'm afraid that I might be boastful when I become rich and famous, ok na ako sa kung anong meron ako though I'm striving to have more pa rin naman.

Last February, my friend asked me if I want to apply in a government position, to give it a try again. My friend knows how I really love to. I had a not so formal interview with the labor attache here. I really miss being in the public service, and as he brief me on the scope of job if ever I will be hired, sobrang naexcite ako since hindi na bago sa akin yong mga ganong trabaho and the most exciting part of it is I can have interaction to those distressed OFW under the agency's custody. After a week, another friends sent me a message confirming if I can go back as early as March 3to assume the position in a government agency where they are working too. To make the story short I wasn't able as I need at least a month to notify my present company but they told me that they will be giving me another chance and notify me again if there will be another vacant position.
Two weeks ago I received the confirmation from Philippines regarding my application for the vacant position here, yes even dito ka magaassume ng position since its a Philippine government agency need na sa Pilipinas pa rin iproprocess lahat ng application. I submitted an incomplete requirements such as medical test, I need health card pa kasi dapat government hospital dito ang magcertify, I waited for 3 weeks and I'm getting a hard time to have it. Today morning the agency confirmed to me that the deadline is over.
Honestly, after so many years ngayon ko lang ulit na-feel yung parang nadisappoint pero wala ka namang magawa kasi its beyond your control, yung ang dami mong tanong pero wala namang mahanap na sagot, yung okay ka pero bakit naiiyak ka.  
While checking my FB I saw that one familiar name commented on the photo I posted. Oh its my former boss and mentor to my previous government agency I worked with, parang kasi ngayon lang sya nagFB kaya for so many years I don't have any means of communication with her. All the memories I had with them flashback, bigla ko tuloy naisip what if magapply kaya ulit ako don this time as a permanent na.
The only words that comes into mind is God's promise in His word in Romans 8:28

From the time I started my application, ipinagpray ko na and I always include it on my prayer. I entrusted it to the Lord, that His will be done kaya siguro kahit may konting panghihinayang mas madali ko syang na-let go. And at the same time God sent me an angle this morning, I found one of "ate" in church whom I look up to, I consider her as my mentor in the church. I am thankful for all the comforting words and sharing me word of God for me to see more clearly and hold on tighter to God's promises. I am really blessed and grateful that the Lord is always  besides  me - to catch me and comfort me; He is always ready before I utter that I need Him.

Ate gave me a line from the song Trust His Heart and it really soothes my heart. Thanks Ate Agnes!

 

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His Heart

I trust His plans for me, I know and always He has better than what I have for myself. 

Lord, You know my heart, my desires and my needs..continue to guide me and lead me, give discernment and wisdom in whatever decision I will make. Continue to teach me and mold me to trust You always and completely. Your will thy be done on me, in all aspects and areas of my life Lord I entrust to You.

 

Please pray for me also. I know that prayer is the best powerful tool we can have to be heard by the Lord.

God bless us all

Goodluck and Godbless Mars!

I don't like good byes but every time I think that good bye is one way for ones life to be better, to walk in new path, to reach their dreams I immediately change how I perceive good byes.

Every month more and more staffs in the company are leaving, although its saddened me because I will miss their presence, but on the other hand I am very happy for them to find new career, to fulfill their dreams.

Meet Dolor - one of my very good friend

She is my batch mate in the company. She was hired June 2006 and after few days July 3 ako naman. And since she's from Accounting and I am Procurement most of the time kami ang magka-transaction sa mga trabaho namin. And from then our friendship started and over the years get deeper. Our ties as friends were tightened more when they chose me to be one of the god mother of their first born Andrew. 

 

We have a lot of memories for more than seven years...

Here are some of the oldest photos we have....

Company parties....

2007 SOJV Year End Party

Colleagues' parties

December 9, 2007 - First Birthday of Kuya Roy's eldest

June 5, 2008 - Ate Agnes Birthday Party

Winter, summer we are together...

We don't have choice ...hahaha just kidding!

nung time na figure conscious pa at sarap na sarap pa sa McVities :-)

From long distance relationship. I witnessed her love story - I mean thru kwento how they started until they get married.

First SOJV Year End with Kuya Sherwin 

When she conceived their first baby...

Baby Shower 

Till the time she gave birth...

Welcome Andrew Shello!

And their first born turned one...

 Happy first birthday Drew!

Birthday Celebrations and Parties with Super Friends...

Until her last day in the office....

Seven years that almost everyday we are together in the office. From the company service till our breakfast. She's the only breakfast buddy I had perfectly for me - yung alam mo na may pagkwekwentuhan ka every morning kung masaya ka may makikitawa sa'yo, kung may problema ka may someone na pwede mong pagsabihan, yung kapag naiiyak ka na at feeling mo magbrebreak down ka, you have someone, who will not only listen you kasi wala syang choice but someone na alam mo na kaibigan mo talaga.

I will miss our lunch break with the SF boys, I'm the only rose na lang...yung masarap na luto nya at ni Kuya Sherwin na lagi nyang ishi-nashare sa amin.

Yung kwentuhan thru emails, phone or by just dropping by on our desk. Wala na akong tatawaging "mars" sa office...

Good byes are really ironic. I'm sad because I will miss her presence that I used to have almost everyday. I will miss the time being with her but on the other hand I am so much happy cos I know she will be in a better hands. And leaving in the company doesn't mean forgetting what the friendship that we have. 

I'm so happy and proud of you Mars!

Good luck and God bless

See you around :-)

Back to Work

After 4 days holiday as in literally no work ^_^ I am now back to reality. Sorry guys if I was not able to post anything during those days. I enjoyed my holiday so much, although I just stayed here in Doha its worth enjoying every day with people I treasure and love, enjoying time with myself and some foodie I craved - don't you ever wonder nor ask me if I gained weight (again) cos the answer is definitely "yes". 

Monday oh Monday! parang Pinas lang na Monday ang first day of work. And since my holiday is over and I started work again, para balance I'm back to blogging too! Yup namiss ko ang blogsphere though I checked almost every night naman pero namiss ko talaga, so expect some posts from my Eid holiday - the food trips, the mall(s) tour and the bonding I have with people I love. No hotel hopping, no beaches nor sunrise, only Doha - the city life.

Seven Years in SOJV

Today marks my 7th year in the company I am working! - Sky Oryx Joint Venture

The company who trusts me to be a part of the organization; the company who molds and teach me professionally; the company who I consider as my bread and butter; the company who bless me and even the people I am supporting.

Thank you so much!
 

My heart is full of thanks giving. Thank you to all the people I've worked and working with; thank you to my bosses and mentor; thank you to my Procurement Department family; thank you to all the friends I've gained; thank you to my Super Friends who are my refuge in the office when stressful days are passing. Super thank you to all people who discouraged  and treated me badly, I am tough as I am today because of those words and actions that you once did to me, honestly no bitterness in my heart. To all who doesn't like me, sorry if I ruin your day every time you see me but thank you for wasting your time on me, I guess you are not the one who's reading this post kasi kung isa ka sa kanila at nagbabasa ka ng post na ito, ay love mo na ako nyan, friends na rin tayo :-) I just write my #1note to myself

Don't think that everything went smoothly to me for seven years - a big "NOT"! I've been to long adjustments, I cried so many tears not only because I'm physically tired of what I am doing but even due to people around me. There were times I also that I wish I'm in the other company who gives higher salary than what I am receiving, there were time I envied others because I see that their company is better than what I have, but thank you Lord for reminding me that You placed me in here and You have a great plan for me being in this company.

Imagine, if I just give up you have nothing to read now :-) just kidding!! but honestly I don't perceived myself where I am now if SOJV didn't give a chance. Kaya super thank you talagang talaga SOJV!
And a part of any celebration is reminiscing...
Maki-throw back tayo kahit hindi pa Thursday :-)

 with SOJV former Deputy Project Manager - Mr. Yusuf

First day at work is a party night!

June 3, 2006, my first day of work in the Al Emadi Business Centre office, afternoon then when I was informed that there will a company party that night at Ramada Hotel (now Radisson). I remember our former HR manager jokingly told me "its a party for you, its your first day and its a welcome party for you!" The party is to give way the formal contract signing between Taisei Corporation and TAV. At dahil first day ko sa work bawal mag-refuse na umattend so guess what time I got home 2:00 am or 3 and need to wake up early for the next day of work.

The photo above is the first and only photo I have on my files, I don't have digital camera yet that time and the only i have on my hand is my camera phone na VBA 3.5mm pa lang, hindi pa uso yung megapixel ang resolution.

If we will talk about memories I have a lotsssssss and most of it are best describes through photos. Nanghalukay muna ako sa baul ng mga natatagong larawan, some are faded and blurred pa pero visible pa naman yung mga face. 

Here are some out of thousands photos with the people I worked and some are still working with, friends that I met and have up to now - but all of them are part of my seven years. And I am thankful to all of you guys for sharing with me a fulfilled seven years.

 First SOJV Annual Party 2006 at Ramada Hotel

First Dinner with the bosses at Intercontinental Hotel

Ang hirap kasabay ng mga boss hindi makakain ng mabuti, I remember PM Horikawa san is asking so many questions hindi ako nabusog..hehehe. And aside I'm hosting the party then for the transition of Tawada san and Sato san. Kabado pa kasi I heard the incoming boss Sato san is very strict "daw", well I proved it wrong.

 First batch of SOJV Procurement Team

Among those staffs, 4 na lang kami na natitira - Mr. HK, Mr. Chadi, Mr. Bishu and me.

First Procurement Team Christmas Party 2007 at Oasis Hotel

Second batch of SOJV Procurement Team at Japanese Villa

Celebrated Valentines Day 2009 at Rumailah Hospital

Meet Ate Rebecca (holding flowers), she's our former assistant secretary who passed away here in Doha due to cancer. You will always be remembered ate.

SOJV 2009 Basketball League

Procurement - Admin Team not won not because the players are not good, but we are only few players halos lahat nasa loob wala man lang substitution, anyways we got the BEST SPORT TEAM  :-)

First time to be an emcee in a big party as SOJV Annual Party 2009

So far that year I guess not because I'm a part of the party itself pero yon ang pinakamasaya. And so far among the annual party yon lang ang umabot until midnight kasi nga super nagenjoy ang lahat sa "band theme" Thanks to the program organizer for believing in me :-)

First time that almost all Filipino in the office wear same color of shirt

Hindi lang mga Filipino sa Pinas ang nakiisa sa pagkawala ni former President Cory Aquino even us here, we did our part.

First outside Friday gala with friends at work

First outreach I went in Doha 
I never thought that by simply forwarding the email that I received asking help for 36 Filipinos in Qatar will open the heart of many and turned out that we personally are the one who handed all the donations to our kababayan. The scenario I've seen on how they survive opened my heart and eyes to help even in a simple and little way other fellow Filipinos in need who are like me an OFW.

Third batch of SOJV Procurement Team

First time to organize donation drive with friends at work for Typhoon Sendong

Super nakakapagod pero doble triple pa nga ang fulfillment na naramdaman namin after we sent all the donations we've collected in the office. Nakakatuwa isang email lang ang daming nagrespond even our subcontractors, halos araw-araw dumadagsa ang mga donations yung iba sa warehouse na ng company muna namin ipinahabilin. It only proves na kapag ginusto natin na tumulong kaya-kaya especially kung sama-sama :-)

I have so many memorable memories in SOJV - sharing important days of my seven years working with them and even staying here in Doha. This might be my last year in the company as the project is soon to end but I will always cherish all the people I met and all the experiences I had. 

I owe a lot to people who in a way molded me and taught me to fight in a good fight.

 who in a way makes each day lighter even tired and stressed...

 To all the friends I had and have, the friendship doesn't end inside the working place...

 Its already tested - through happiness and sorrow....

 Wherever we go....

The friendship will always stay.

SOJV and the people who I met along this journey will always be in my heart wherever I go. Seven years for some is still short but for me its an achievement :-)

Seventh year here might be the last but its always be worth it and special. Thank you so much to all of you. I am wishing all of us success in our future.

Thank you Lord for everything. I give back all the honor, praises and thanksgiving to You