Saturday, June 23, 2012

Meeting Xen

I love meeting people especially those who are really strangers to me. But I'm not that tough not to feel nervous but in a way it excites me. Don't get me wrong when I am say "strangers" - they are the one who either I met through a common friend, colleagues, pal or whoever I've known personally or its either I have encountered in social sites but with same passion as mine. Honestly, it took me some years to learn how to trust with people whom I don't know personally - I mean "physically". Thanks to those people who really proved that friendship is possible even you don't meet yet in person and it goes deeper when of course you meet in flesh.
I'm glad I met them all and up to now I am keeping and treasure them. I considered them as God's gift to me. I'm happy that as days, moths, and years passes by, the friendship I have with them gets deeper.

I am thankful for meeting people from different walks of life. Meeting people in unexpected way and with same passion as mine is great for me.

After the MAY Birthday Project 2012, I received an invitation from FB, at first I was hesitant to add her but when I saw that we have a common friend and aside her name is familiar already as I see her on Kcat's FB post, I added her. Few days after that, she send me message asking if I can keep in touch in one woman named Xenia. Since its for a good cause, I did until me and Xenia were connected through FB. Although there's something running in my mind "mataray ba sya, sosyal siguro..." when I first chatted with her magaan na ang loob ko sa kanya and I feel we've known each other for quite sometimes. The same feeling when I didn't meet yet Jessie, Kcat, Joanne, and Abhie - yung parang anything kaya nyong pagusapan although you don't know much personal things about each other. She even gave me some advices that I know will help me. After a week of chatting, we finally agreed to meet up and the location on their own house.
All the doubts in my mind were gone when I finally meet her on June 20, 2012 - its Wednesday and its my day!
For my whole 6 years here in Qatar, she's the only stranger na naglakas ng loob ako na i-meet and sa bahay ko pa nya talaga sya pinuntahan. Its for a good cause so maybe that's the reason malakas ang loob ko and aside I feel comfortable chatting with her so I assumed its the same in person. Well, its more than I expected :) she's very down to earth person, humble, and kind. In one word she is sensible. She made us feel that we are really welcome in their house, parang at home na at home naman talaga kami. I remember I had the same feeling when I met Joanne on their house, first meet up din namin and I feel so comfortable with her and with her family.
I know meeting Xen is just a start of another friendship. There will be another meal together not only dinner *_^  sarap nyang magluto!
While I'm writing this post bigla ko lang naisip that friendship is also like a painting. It started in a canvass put some color for its base until you add some color and other details on it until you created a work of art. Every friendship started in one simple hi or hello until followed by conversation or meeting up until it goes on and on and on and bloom into a deeper one.
 Thanks Xen! Looking forward for more kwentuhan and bonding moments. Thanks also for the artworks and for your compassion to help and reach out people who needs our love and concern.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Honesty & Trust

I had a very busy weekend last Friday, June 15, 2012. I had only 3 hours and 30 minutes sleep till Friday. And its all worth it. I ended my Friday talking with my friend for almost 8 hours on video call - well thanks Facebook, its actually my first time to try it. Thanks FB for making million miles seems few steps behind and for making 7 hours time difference like we're just in same time zone :))
That 8 hours of talking and chatting with him, moved me in a way especially those issues regarding life and relationships. I was really moved when he asked me about my past relationship, well that's the reason behind of this blog, I'm kinda affected? in a way as I examined and analyzed myself how all it was and how am I today. 
These are some of the issues that really made me think *_^

"Patingin ng pic ni ex boyfriend?"
Well I do have a hard copy but I am thinking where I put that. I don't have any soft copy anymore. It's been 6 years already and if there's one thing I have with my ex its the friendship that I will always treasure - nothing more! And aside the last time I talked to him is 2008 pa just to greet me on my birthday and to give me a piece of advice not to marry someone I don't really know. Another thing that will always be remind me of him is the most beautiful stolen picture that I have and I really do treasure.
I'm really thankful I had this picture :) This was taken May 2005 in one food chain in SM Batangas City, captured only by cellphone but since the person who captured this one is professional photographer, it turned out as good as this. Only after two years since the picture was taken,when I learned that I have this kind of pic. Buti na lang binigay nya pa rin at di pa nadelete *_^ Thanks Jerome!

"Bakit hindi ka ulit magtiwala, it doesn't mean naman na what happened before will happen again?"
That really stuck me. People usually misunderstood me na dahil I'm not in the relationship I am not yet move on or I'm still afraid to trust again, well its not that way.
Honestly, I'm enjoying my singlehood but it doesn't mean that my door is "closed" for anyone. Maybe I'm just taking some considerations but it doesn't mean that I don't want to be in a relationship already. 
Trust but verify. People usually misunderstood when we are trying to ask questions and sometimes interrogation to know something, they are telling "you don't trust me" - verification and not trusting is different.
Lets put in this way, when someone you know for quiet sometimes ask you to marry him, will you immediately say "yes" and plan ahead. Of course, you will try to reach possible people that can give you deeper and more information kung sino yung papakasalan mo - and the best is the family.  I admit when it comes to relationship practices (from courting to marrying siguro) I am still in old fashioned side.
Honesty and trust are must. They are two different thing but they should always go together. 
I love this picture I found last night ..

 For those who can't practice and live with HONESTY and TRUST please do not be in a relationship, you will just ruin one life.

Am I move on?
Yes I am. I am very thankful to the Lord that He healed all the wounds of the past and renew my heart.  Now, I am ready to take chances again, I know all things will not be in an ideal order but I already proved to myself that in growing up, heartaches and pains are part of it.
You don't need to be in a hurry in taking into a relationship - you need to be sure. When you commit to someone you must have a perspective that it will be a lifetime commitment, so if you are not sure about yourself better to be out as soonest, as you're both wasting the time for each other.
I am  "still few years" more from my "timeline" and for some its "only few years"  but whatever tomorrow may offer what I want is to be the best of what I can - whether single, in a relationship, married 'wag lang complicated =)

Thanks for a good chat!

Sunday, June 3, 2012

6 Years and Still Counting

Happy SIX years!
Thank you Lord for another year of blessings staying here in Doha,  Qatar.
Thank you for all the people who walked and still walking with me on my journey.
Thank you Tita Sylvia for sharing your blessings to us,  for letting us be in this country as well - for your love, care and guidance and for keeping me like your own daughter.
Thank you Balita family, na kahit nagdaan yung times na siksikan na tayo sa bahay sa dami natin, oo masaya pero lets admit never let us feel uneasy. During those times that I'm still looking for work and encountered some problems in my visa, you let me feel how much you really care for me. You never give up to encourage me and be positive as always. An endless gratitude to all of you.
Thank you Doha family, for the love and care and because of you homesickness is lessen =D Thank you my Pinas family, cousins and titas and titos for even in simplest way of sending something here, you let me feel that we're always love and remembered.
Thank you Tito Manding and Tita Neneth, for being one the person I look up to. For your advices and encouragements.
Thank you Kuya Matt and Ate Liezel for being good to me and for sharing not only your house but your home. Thank you Aleeza for making Tita Jen laugh especially when I am tired and I need someone to cheer me up. You are my "ms.tickle". Thank you Darwin, not only for being a housemate but for being a friend.
For six years, I truly earned so many friends here in Qatar. They are one of the few gems I have in my life. I want to mention all of your names but I'd rather not baka kasi may makalimutan..hehehe. You know who you are. Thank you for being good to me  - for  the friendship, love, and care that you imparted to me. I always say "may mga nawala, may mga tumalikod, may mga andito lang naman pero parang wala pero mas maraming nadagdag" I'm thankful to the people I have in my life at this moment, you are really worthy to have and treasured.
Thank you to my BS Manoura Group for continuously molding me, for your love and care, for the fellowships - super thank you that my Thursday is really worth it kahit puyat =)
Thank you to my QICM (Qatar International Christian Ministries) Family for the spiritual growth you are continuously imparting to me, for molding me not only to be a good person but to be a tough Christian. "One day in the house of God is better than a thousand days in the world" thankful and blessed I found you.
Thank you sa mga friends ko sa Philippines and other part of the world =). Even though we're miles away from each other ramdam na ramdam ko pa rin how warm your friendship, love, care and concern to me. Even though we have several hours difference from each other, it doesn't matter to you, isang text, isang tawag, isang email ko lang you responded immediately. Maraming maraming thank you sa inyong lahat.
Thank you to my family for being my inspiration especially in times that I want to give up. Thank you Lord for giving me a bonded family - a loving one. Thank you Mommy, Daddy, Bj & Len and even to JB and JJ. Thank you for even I am away you let me feel that we're only few steps away. You're my inspiration and reason why I am away. I  know in times we will be together again.
Thank you Doha for adopting me for 6 years and I know you will continuously shower and share me your blessings. Thank you for you've been good to me!
Thank you Lord, siksik, liglig at umaapaw na 6 na taon. Thank you very much for all the blessings. All the highest thanksgiving and praises is to you alone.
And as I walk to another year, continue to bless me O God and plant in my heart the desires that according to Your will alone.

*Before I finish this post, I had a chance to go out for lunch in the office - treat for myself =D

Thank you SUPERFRIENDS Louie, Kuya Ham, Nelson, Jane, Irene, Paulo, and Marvin.