Homesickness

I miss my old life....

How I wish....

Women in my Life

She's the only woman who knows me since birth...

The only woman who knows every little birth marks & scars I had...

The only woman who taught me my first word...

The only woman who guided me as I'm doing my first step...

The only woman who taught me how to read & write...

The only sister I have even from the start...

The woman who I really love & adore because of her strenght, beliefs, attitudes, views in life, love & care to her family, and her faith in God...

My sister, my friend, my shopping buddy...my MOM

Happy happy mother's day Mommy...

I love you very much...

Thank you for everything & most of all for raising me the way I am now.

Age gap didn't hinder us to be friends with each other...

Whenever we're together & someone ask you who I am you will smile & reply..."my eldest"

We started as group mates in Graduate School but until now the friendship we had become deeper & stronger...

You're the "Joe D Mango" of my life...you're not biassed instead your being truth though sometimes truth really hurts but honesty matters most...

You're my kikay mirror as even though I am half of your age we share the same taste when it comes to fashion...

I call you "Tita Ninang" as we agreed that when I got married you will be one my principal sponsor...so be ready =)

My best friend, my Tita Ninang...

Happy happy Mother's Day!

Thank you for loving me like your own

I still remember when I'm still in school, if Mommy/ Daddy cannot make it to get my report card you stand to be my guardian...that's why on the same school where you are working I was recognized by teachers as your niece. Until now that I'm working away from my Mom you're still standing to be like her by my side.

You know how much thankful I am to you for helping me to be who I am today...or should I say what I have today. I still remember the first advice you gave me when I'm still new here in Doha (actually its just I think my 1st day) "Pag sakay ng eroplano leave all those things sa Pinas...all the said things; don't expect anything kasi maraming mangyayari when you're away home.Iwanan lahat sa Pinas and focus on your new life." I know what you mean even you didn't said it directly to me. Your fullof advices that's why naman kahit in the middle of the night at di ako makatulog I will knock your door & disturb you to ask advices or prayers from you.

Tita thank you very very much... I know how I really owe you.

I love you...

Happy happy mother's day!

Rushing

"Rushing resulted to things that you don't want to accomplish"
This is my last memory quotes that until now stuck on my mind...I heard this from one celebrity this morning when he had an interview. Immediately as I heard it from him I said "yes" without hesitation naisip ko talaga that's its true.

Sometimes we have decisions in life na parang gusto nating bawiin, na why we did it or why we said it...its like nasa huli ang pagsisisi.
I have a friend who reminds me of this "rushing"..last March exactly on my birthday nagparamdam sya, at least he remember may birthday. I knew even before that he get married already but didn't hear that straight from him. Until nga nakausap ko sya, and yes he confirmed...he is married. He told me na wag daw ako tumulad sa kanya na nagmadali kaya di nya alam ngayon kung tama ba yung ginawa nya..Hindi naman siguro ako magpapakatanga na katulad mo, how sad that because of pressures (not sure) or dahil nagmadali sya, he come out to not so happy output.
But whatever excuses we have its already accomplished...its done.
So the only thing we can do is next time don't rush....

"Yes I Do Have"

Yesterday is a not so good day for me, but still I considered it as a blessings... I mean all experiences naman always serves certain lesson to us.
Let me start why I said that it's "not that good"....
I slept 12:00 midnight..two weeks in a row na akong ganito. Di ako makatulog agad even I'm tired, its either I will read Cosmo (back issue na nga, I bought in Pinas when I went for my vacation) or books or its either magsusulat ako as in manually ha kasi if open na naman my laptop baka 2:00 am na e gising na gising pa ako. Di ako masyadong nakatulog ewan ko ba kung bakit. I woke up 5:15a.m, used to it na mejo mabagal kasi ako..hehehe.
Usually @ 6:00 dapat naliligo na ako but since I found sms message on my roaming cp I called my mom,mejo napasarap ako ng kwento so a little bit delayed na ako nakaligo.
Likewise,datirati before my driver give me a miscall its either I'm already down or nasa elevator na ako but yesterday I just found out na he already miscalled me at 7:07 na pala...I'am 3 mins.late na.
On my way to office a super kulit na kapitbahay namin sa Pinas called me (he's also working here),kung alam ko lang na sya yon di ko na sinagot e company phone daw nya yon...actually distant relative ko sya,in fact he calls me "pinsan". Iniisip ko nga minsan di pa ba sya nakakahalata na ayaw ko sya kausap kasi nga we're not close naman tapos no topic to talk about naman..parang hello we're just wasting our time to talk to each other and ito pa ang kinakainis ko sa kanya he wants me o meet his officemates! halloer??? and he gave my email ad to one of them e buti naman sana kung may sense kausap yong officemate nya e naku super bagyo sa kayabangan. So dahil nga nakukulitan na ako sa "pinsan" ko daw when he asked me kung may bf na ako I said YES...Actually its not my first time to lied na may bf na ako ulit but ginagawa ko lang yon kapag nakukulitan na ako sa mga taong tanong ng tanong...just to finish the discussion sabihin ko na lang na YES I DO HAVE A BOYFRIEND. At least no questions asks after.
I txted my mom regarding that I told her na if that man tell her na I do have bf na is wag maniwala, although ok lang sa kanila actually gusto nga nila na magkabf na ulit ako. Pero ang hirap naman na ang alam nila meron then wala pala. I'm waiting for her reply but since pagdating ko pa lang sa office e super dami ng mga documents di ko napansin na dead batt na pala ang cp ko. I almost half day not on my desk sa super dami ng docs na kelngan ko icheck before & after my boss signed.
Afternoon na ng makita ko ang reply ni Mommy...actually di ko alam kung maiiyak ako sa inis or should I blame myself na sinabi ko pa sa kanya pero ok nman, I'm just sensitive nga lang siguro when the topic is regarding my ex bf. They didn't know anything about how or when or what happened why me & my ex separated and the worst they might thinking na kami pa or we're still communicating...di ko na lang sya nireplyan. Sometimes naiisip ko tuloy di ko na lang sana pinakilala yung ex ko sa family ko...hayzzz...Anyways, its over as they say past is past, the only thing I can do next time is to update my family on what the real status of my relationship is so they will not expect anything in the end.
I have something to share pa sana but I need to get away from my PC coz I need to be back at work. =)

Wedding Showbits

Last night I came home from office early hmmm around 10:00pm..yeah its still early for me I mean its just a regular time I usually got home. I turned on the tv and sympre kung saan ako at home sa TFC, and since its Sunday..."The Buzz". What's to expect than continuous news about Ryan & Judy Ann's wedding. But honestly I am really amazed also on how they come up into a "silent wedding" as in super bilib ako on how they planned it and the best thing on it..it didn't spill into public knowing that they are public personalities and much more the status of Judy Ann being the new super star of Philippine movie. Every detail is unique..from the invitations to the reception.
As I watched the interview of Boy Abunda & Kris Aquino on the bride's brother Jeffrey,who is also a Philippine actor super nakita ko how he & the rest of the family is closed to Judy Ann. He is teary eyed saying how much they will miss their "bunso". Coming from an older brother he sincerely tell to the public how he is impress to Ryan...from panliligaw up to pamamanhikan na ginawa nya up to the wedding as well. Let's admit only few brothers is usually close to their brother in law & give credit to him or appraisal.
Naisip ko tuloy what if kung ako na yung ikakasal...will my husband to be get the same compliments as Ryan got from Jeffrey? will he be close also to my family. Im not that super close to my brother kahit were only 2 siblings but in fairness naman to him he supports me & give me advices when it comes to my lovelife...sometimes its ackward kasi nga I'm the eldest. I remembered when I had my bf, sa kanya ko unang sinabi & he advised me to na ipakilala ko kina Mommy & Daddy. Likewise, he keep on saying me na "wag ko lang ikaw makikitang papaiyakin nyan"...I saw his concern on me,maybe that's also the reason why I didn't let him know how I was hurt when me & my ex separated...not even a single word until now we didn't talk about it even my Mom & Dad. And maybe they also know that I don't want to tackle that issue as well.
How I wish I have an eldest brother..pero ok na rin kahit wala kc no choice eh...
Siguro ang sarap ng feeling when your family really very vocal of saying that they will miss you when you get married kasi ibig sabihin lang non you've been good to them...
So much for that, I will just wait my turn for whatever reactions they will have 'pag andon na ako sa point na yon kasi as of now isipin ko man e wala rin kasi sabi ko nga sa Mommy ko when she's asking me kung kelan ako magpapakasal "Me, hindi nagkakasal ng magisa lang..or mahirap magpakasal ng mag-isa" hehehe

I am Blessed

Lately I have encountered so many things that made me realized how really blessed I am. Although even before I know that I am bless and I really thank the Lord for showering me those blesings.
Since I came home late from the office (much late than before)...hmm 9:30 p.m is the earliest na yata, after changing my office clothes I watch T.V muna para marelax. I love watching T.F.C, it really make me relax...I feel I'm just a few steps from my home...from Philippines. One time I'm watching WOWOWEE and yung category ng mga players is yung mga vendor and most of the contestants as I've noticed is on their retirement age (i mean they should stay home na lang sana and may mga anak naman sila na dapat sila na yung nagsustento) but still they are the one who works for their family.
Contestant A...she's a mother of a 14 year old teenager. I thought at first ok its just normal kasi minor pa naman yung anak nya until I continously wtching & found out that the 2 year old girl that her daughter is carrying is already her grand daughter. I almost cry, imagine a 14 year old girl is already a mother. And aside from that the husband of that woman is paralyzed, so she's the only one who's working for their family.
Contestant B..he's a father of 3 siblings but those 3 are all mentally illed. Siguro mga nasa 65 & up na yung contestant as well as yung wife nya. But on their face inspite of their situation you cannot see the frustration..and really it encouraged me how strong yung faith nila kay LORD. Again it reminds me what the Lord says in Jeremiah 29:11
I'AM BLESSED....
I received an email two weeks ago regarding 40 Filipinos in Doha,Qatar who needs immediate help. I treated that mail just like an ordinary mail...forward it to my friends and relatives who are also here in Qatar, although there's a conviction within me that why not to help them. Two weeks later I received the same email again from my cousin, I'm about to delete it kasi nga nabasa ko na yon but I still opened it & read. I found out that those 4o Filipinos are still here in Doha and officemates of my cousin are raising funds/donations to help them. It encouraged me & pushed me to do my part.Though I'm really really busy on my work,naisip ko na I can still help them in my own way. I composed email and together with the attached forwarded email I received from my cousins and send it to my colleagues and friends. If we really want to reach out others, there are so many ways we can do it. Minsan nga lang ang naiisip ng tao its just thru monetary tayo pwede makatulong...yeah in a way but its not the only way or outlet to help. If you want to read the story of those 40 kababayans here in Doha Qatar, you can visit http://www.gsamaritans.multiply.com/ and if you want to reach out to them you can send me a message here in this site or on gsamaritans site.
After reading & hearing stories about them, it really made me feel how bless I am. Having a good job, a humane boss who treated us well as in everyone of us look unto him kasi he is a good manager & a good leader as well. Naisip ko after I learned about the stories on them.. I don't have the right to complain (actually di naman ako reklamador hehehe) & even my colleagues doesn't have the right coz we are really blessed.
I AM BLESSED
Sometimes encounters problems & faces on trials but its hard to accept sometimes that those problems & trials are the best teachers in life. Maybe its hard for us when we're in that situation to accept easily pero if I learned one thing on my experienced THERE'S ALWAYS A PURPOSE for everything. GOD WILL NOT ALLOW US TO BE HURT...EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON & one day we will be thankful for those problems & trials.
We are bless in our own way....what we need to do is to seek that blessings on us

Time

I have so many things in my mind right now...
So many thoughts that I want to share...
Lots of plan that I want to do...
But the question is WHEN...
Hmmm...maybe if I have T I M E.